Saturday, May 14, 2011

A letter to My slut...

Well I wrote a letter to My slut last night, laying out all the dark secrets in me. At first she was a little upset thinking that I was complaining about the things she doesn't do, even though I made a point to write in there that it was not my intention. We talked about it and I allayed her fears. She was afraid that she could never be what I want. I told her that as long as she always does her best I will never be dissapointed in her. If she gives me less than that, that will not be tolerated though. She also promised that she will work hard to get back to the mentality that earned her "My slut" moniker.

In my letter I basically told her that there is a part in me that wants to give her erotic pain, which she already knew,  but I told her that I want to spank, flog, cane, or all of those until she cries for me. That I want to spank her ass red so she feels it for days afterwards every time she sits. I want her to take my pain because it pleases me. I also told her that I will then hold her and kiss away her tears and tell her how special she is and how much I love her for taking that for me.

She promised to do her best to be what I want. She said it is very important to her that she makes me happy. I know she may never get to be the complete pain slut I would love her to be, but if she gets to the point where she lets me bring her to the point of tears I will be very happy. I will try to teach her to turn the pain into pleasure, and I can as long as she trusts me and does the necessary things I tell her to do so. I know how to guide her there as long as she follows my teaching.

So in all, I'm glad I finally wrote the letter to her. It was a bit scary for me to do so. You never know how they will react. She did make a point to tell me that she wasn't crying because she was afraid of me, just because she was afraid of disappointing me. I think that shows that she will make a strong effort to be at least a bit of a pain slut for me.

Thank you to all who responded to my last post with such words of encouragement and advice.

William 

P.S.
A funny thing, one of her friends is having issues with her husband where her husband is acting almost exactly how My slut used to act. She says every time her friend tells her something he did, she just has to say, "Holy shit!" is that how I was with my husband? She now really knows what I went through, and tells me that she must need to hear this to remind her of what she did and to not let herself get back to that point. She is upset with herself for the back sliding she has done lately and promises to make it right.

3 comments:

  1. That was a brave letter to write. I am happy you got the reaction you wanted and wish you both happiness on your journey.

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  2. I am glad you did that. I am sure it was scary but every time you lay everything on the line like that it is bound to be.

    Now I look forward to reading about all the improvements you are making. :)

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  3. Good for you! :) Doesn't everything feel better now that you been totally honest and open?

    Hope it works out :)

    *hugs*

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