Friday, December 31, 2010

Happy New Year...

We are going to a party tonight. The first New Years party we've ever gone to together, after 11 years... I'm hoping it is fun. There are going to be a bunch of young kids, so it won't be too wild for sure, but we'll see. I want to flog My slut's ass a bit before we go, like I wanted to on Christmas Eve but it didn't work out. I'll run it by her later when she wakes from her nap. She's not a night person, so she getting some rest. I'm sure she'll let me, and I'll let you all know how it goes, and how red her sweet ass gets.

I hope all my readers and followers have a fun and safe New Years Eve. Be careful out there and have a lot of fun. Hopefully some of you will have some hot M/s or D/s play, or even just some hot, sweaty fucking!!!

Here's to a fun and sexy New Year filled with increased knowledge and fun in learning about BDSM and teaching My slut about the joys of it.


Tasks for the New Year...

I've been working on a list of tasks for My slut to accomplish in the new year. I haven't had a chance to give it to her yet, but I will in the next day or so. Some of you had expressed an interest in what I wanted from her, so here goes.

She is going to lose the weight she needs to. We will work out together 5 days a week.
She is to wear makeup every weekday. She looks beautiful and should still try to look pretty for me.
Dress much nicer. Enough of the oversized sweat shirts and baggy jeans. Skirts and dresses more.
Keep practicing her oral skills, and work toward letting me cum in her mouth. Hopefully by my birthday in March.
Get more comfortable with body, ie...masturbate to orgasm in front of me.
Learn to orgasm on command.
Learn to take My pain from floggings, canings, spankings, clamps, etc...I am a sadist after all.
Learn to turn pain into pleasure.
Get comfortable in bondage.
Send me at least one dirty text a day, and one dirty picture a week...grins!
Try to learn to ejaculate...Her G-spot really swells up during sex!
Learn basic submissive positions.
Get comfortable having a dildo used on her...She claims to not really like them, we'll see.
Make some dirty home movies. We've already taken pictures.

It's a pretty long list, and there are a few other private things I won't post here. These are things I want her to try to learn within the coming year. Some she will do, some she may not.

There are things I will task myself to do in the new year as well. I will post them in the next few days after I have time to make up the list.

Let me know what you think of the list. Maybe things on there you can do or would like to be able to do yourself.

Happy New Year to all my readers and followers!!!


Thursday, December 30, 2010

Flash Fiction Friday 12/30/10...

It was below freezing, but Master was not about to let his slave off the hook. she was to be naked in his presence whenever he required it. She begged to keep her coat on. He was feeling generous, so he let her keep her hat on.
He pulled the tawes from his belt and reddened her ass. Winter's kiss competed with the strap, but he was about to remedy that as he laid into her with vigor as she yelped in pain.

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

On flogging...

Since My slut has agreed to a flogging I have been thinking about it a lot the last week. We haven't had time or the privacy to carry it out yet, but soon.

I will have her stand at the foot of the bed and place her forearms on the bed. I will stroke her sex until she gets turned on. It never takes her long. I've never heard of a woman being able to cum as fast as she can, and trust me she isn't faking it. You can't fake that much wetness. Once she is sufficiently lubed up, I will start with the small flogger warming up her ass. First one cheek then the other, Starting very lightly of course to build the warmth and to not frighten her away from My pain. I will gradually whip her harder while alternating sliding my fingers through her moist nether lips and sliding one or two fingers inside her. Her G-spot really swells up. I really want to see if I can make her squirt. I will continue lashing her sweet tender ass until I get a nice red glow going. Before switching to the larger flogger, I will once again push two fingers inside her and with my other hand I will rub her clit. If she begs to cum, I will let her. After she cums once and once only, I will remove my fingers and grab the flogger. I will once again start slowly and lightly, gradually increasing intensity. I will again take momentary breaks to tease and rub her soaking wet cunt. When she now asks to cum, I will stop and go back to flogging. I will continue this until she has reached her limit, whenever that is. When she has had enough, I will pull out my throbbing cock and enter her from behind. She is so tight in this position that I rarely last very long. For whatever reason, her cunt is extra tight when she is bent over. I will rub her clit as I fuck her until I flood her insides with my hot cum. This almost always triggers her to cum really hard. Afterwards I will have her suck our combined juices off of me. I love the feeling of having her hot mouth on me after I've fucked her and cum inside her.

I can't wait to make this happen. Should be this week...Hopefully!

Monday, December 27, 2010

My slut keeps surprising me...

Every day she seems to do something to surprise me. She isn't feeling well today. She takes medication once a week that makes her feel sick, so weekends aren't usually very playful. She came up to me tonight and said she couldn't wait to feel better. I asked her why and she told me because she needed some hard cock. I just had to smile at her!!! It is such a welcome change from just last August. I will keep encouraging this new mentality.

I started compiling the list of things I want her to work on in the new year. Things to help her feel better about herself, things to make her life go smoother, things to make our home life better, and lastly things that I want her to learn to do or get better at for my pleasure. Which of course will lead to more pleasure for her as well. I will post the list when I get it done, and after I go over it with her. Some of it may be a little challenging for her, but most of it is just getting her more focused.

Have a good wek all.


Sunday, December 26, 2010

Letting out my dominant side...

I was raised by my mother for the most part. My parents divorced when I was eight, so I didn't have a real strong male influence. My step-dad was not interested in raising me and I was OK with that. The result of that was I didn't have an abundance of self confidence. It took me years to find my confidence. The trigger for it was when my ex-wife left. She was very domineering and I was quite meek back then. I was devastated for awhile, but then one day I had an epiphany. I asked myself why I had always lived my life to make everyone else happy. First my parents, then teachers. Later friends then my wife. After that day I decided I was going to make me happy and find out what I needed to be content.

That's when I found out about my needs to dominate and control a woman. I was late coming to realise my desires in this. Maybe that's why the desire is so strong. I feel like I have a lot of lost time to make up for. It seems to get stronger every day. It seems society is hell bent on punishing dominant men in the public arena. Being "metrosexual" is the ideal. Be in touch with your feminine side and you will be much happier. Women are told to not need a man, they can take care of themselves. I'm all for women being strong, but we need each other. We are happiest when we are in a happy union. Whatever the dynamic. I'm not looking down on the gay community, it just doesn't apply to my particular situation. I've had freinds that were gay and got along fine with them. What I'm trying to get at is, maybe our parents and grandparents knew what they were doing when the man was the HoH, and the woman took care of the house and kids. Maybe that's why it was called the good old days. No one can convince me that families are better off today. There are so many broken families and kids being raised by single parents. I know there are a lot of great women out there who did and do a great job, my mother being one of them. She raised us without a man for awhile. On the average though, a boy needs a father, and a girl needs a mother to learn how they are supposed to be a man and a woman. Just my opinion, and I'm sure some would disagree with me, and I'm OK with that.

Back to my point, it took me awhile to find my dominant side because I wasn't raised with a strong male presence and every boy needs to learn to be a man. Not necessarily be a Dom, but be a man a woman can depend on to protect and take care of her. Be trustworthy that he will always do right by her.
Just be a man!
Rant over...


Saturday, December 25, 2010

Things not as they should be, but so close...

Well this week certainly hasn't turned out the way we thought it would. Between being tired, interrupted by the boy, and not feeling well, My slut hasn't been able to train at all, and fuck very little. Then to top it off, she has been on a bunch of antibiotics all month and as you ladies out there know what they can do to a woman's body, she is now out of commsion for at least a few days. Neither of is are very happy at all. Mentally we have worked some things through, but physically we haven't been able to do hardly anything. I look forward to New Years to get some things done. She wants to work on a few things, so I am happy about her attitude and her willingness to step things up a bit.

She looked hot as hell dressed up for me last night, but unfortunately I wasn't able to show her how she made me feel. I did make sure that I told her how hot she looked, many times through the night. That brought a smile to her face every time.

I mentioned that I wanted to warm her ass up a bit with the flogger before we went to the in-laws. She was all for it, but she just wasn't feeling up to it. Way too uncomfortable to even want to feel my pain. I didn't want to try it when she was not at her best. Not a good time to have her try something new and intense. No way to tell how she would react, and I didn't want it to be a bad experience. I look forward to giving her many floggings, so I don't want her first to be a bad one.

On a big plus side, My slut bought me "Secretary" for Christmas. We're going to have to sit down and watch it together. I think it will show her the beautiul side of the D/s dynamic better than I have described it to her.

That's about it for now. Not the week we had planned for sure. We are both very bummed. She told me tonight she was very upset about not getting all the cock she wanted. This is a very new feeling for her, craving my cock, and especially telling me such. What a change in four months. A change I am very happy about. I think it will be useful in her training. She will have to be a good slut or she doesn't get the cock she needs. Only good sluts get hard cock, bad sluts just get teased and brought close to orgasm, then told they can't. I think the new year is going to bring a lot of fun and passion, and many new skills learned by her. I'm sure I will learn a lot too. I can see us growing together in many new ways. Ways she never imagined. I see us getting closer and closer, and I see her becoming my wonderful and sexy sub.

Merry Christmas!!!

I'm up to over 2000 views. Wow!!! I'd like to thank all of my readers. It took me two months to get to 1000, and less then two more weeks to double that. I am truly shocked and humbled that all of you enjoy what I have to say enough to keep coming back. Thank you, and I hope to keep you enthralled with many more saucy and naughty adventures. Thank you especially to my followers for showing to everyone that they enjoy my writing enough to follow it closely. I enjoy returning the favor and reading about all of your adventures and trials too.


Flash Fiction Friday...

Santa was beat. It had been a long night. As he finished putting the presents under the tree of the last house, he heard a noise behind him. Turning quickly around, he saw one of the most beautiful women he had seen in ages. She was dressed just like him, but she wore only a short coat and hat, with just stockings and 6" stillettos.

Without a word, she opened her coat like she was unwrapping a gift, and let it drop to the floor. She slowly walked to him, and with a smile, dropped to her knees in front of him and undid his coat and trousers.

"I've been naughty, Santa, but now I'll be good to make up for it.", she said with a wicked grin, And proceeded to give Santa the best hummer he'd had in centuries. It didn't take long for Jolly old St. Nick to lose it , and he groaned as his load gushed into the naughty little elf's mouth.

"Mmmm, tastes just like eggnog.", she said with a smile as she licked her lips. "Now, do you ever use that whip on anyone other than the reindeer?", she asked as she bent over and offered her firm ass to be whipped.

Santa grinned wickedly.

Friday, December 24, 2010

The best laid plans...

After having a small misunderstanding last night, on my part, we had a productive conversation this morning. I had commented that she hadn't been very agreeable to any training for quite awhile. She explained and I understood. I asked her about why she hated the thought of being spanked, but didn't mind so much the thought of being flogged. Apparently she had a bad experience with being spanked by a family member years ago. It was on her birthday, but it was in front of friends. There was nothing bad intended, but she was mortified by it, and only just realized today that it might be the root of her aversion.

So this afternoon I sent her a little text that I was going to flog her ass and then fuck her hard tonight. We send each other sexy texts even when we are in the same house. It just seems a little naughty for her, and fun for me. She was agreeable to being flogged. She came to my desk later to give me a hug, and I told her I was going to make her sexy ass a beautiful red. She told me she didn't agree to that, and I told her I didn't ask. That made her smile and squirm a little.

Bed time comes for the little man, and out of the blue he says he can't sleep, but he will fall asleep quicker if he lays in our bed with my wife. Well he finally is asleep at 11PM. Much too late for My slut to start playing. She is a morning person, not a night owl like me. Well I put the boy in his bed, kiss My slut goodnight and tuck her in. She wants to try again tomorrow.
We are going to the in-laws for Christmas Eve to have dinner and open gifts. I'm going to try to talk her into going over there with a warmed ass. (fingers crossed).

We did have some sex yesterday, but she wasn't up to training, hence my mis-understanding last night. It was pretty much just vanilla, but I had her give me oral sex until I came. Not in her mouth yet, but she is working on it. She's one of those woman that have problems with it. Bad experience from her ex. At least she is trying to get to the point where she can do it. I did compliment her that she is getting better with her technique though. She gave me the best head she ever has. It was a challenge to hold back and not give her a mouthful, as much as I wanted to, and I told her as much. It made her happy to know she was pleasing me that much. Then I made her cum a bunch of times until she begged me to fuck her. I of course obliged, and pounded her very wet cunt until I came a second time inside her. She loves that feeling now. For years she didn't like me too, but for some reason, since we started the D/s process she doesn't want me to ever pull out. She especially loves watching me and feeling me cum in her while she is riding me. It makes her happy that she can make me feel that good. This is coming from a woman that absolutely refused to get on top, even though I begged her to for years. Now it's her favorite position. Go figure...

Now I'm going to go get my big flogger and trim down the tails. It's kind of a cheap one, and it is too long. I can't really get the feel I want, and I think if I shorten it I will get a better response from My slut.


Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Merry Christmas...

I wanted to say to all my readers, that I hope you all have a very Merry Christmas, or whatever you choose to call this Holiday. I myself am an atheist, but I celebrate this time of year as a way to spend time with family and friends. Of course my young son just absolutely loves it...smiles!!! To you and yours, have a wonderful Holiday season, and don't forget to tell the ones you love that you do love them. No matter what your relationship or dynamic is, make sure they know you treasure them for what they mean to you, and how they enrichen your life.

Merry Christmas,


Tuesday, December 21, 2010


I take her by the arm and guide her to the room. I have prepared it for my purposes. I will take what is mine tonight. She can resist, deny, but she won't. She wants and needs this even though her mind won't allow her heart to acknowledge it. She has always needed to be taken under control, but the right man had never tried. Now she knows there is nothing she can do to resist. She is lost, and found at the same time. I see these things in her eyes though she tries to hide them. To deny me access to her heart, or so she thinks. I will break down her defenses and take what is mine.

I strip her naked without a word, and she gives no resistance. Taking my shackles, I bind her arms behind her back. Her lush breasts pushed out towards me. Her nipples giving away her excitement. I can hear her breath coming out raggedly even as she tries to control it. She wants to deny her feelings to me and herself. If she admitted that she was a wanton slut, a submissive who craved control, it would tear down the walls she has built around her heart and soul all these years to protect her. She would be laid bare to my piercing eyes and knowing mind.

I turn her around to face me, and give her a deep passionate kiss. Tasting her need as she kisses me back with a passion she can barely contain. I drink of her submission and lust. I will tear her down and build her back. Better and stronger than she can ever imagine. I push her to her knees in front of me and unzip my pants. Pushing my throbbing cock against her moist lips, she momentarily resists, then I see the realization of what she must do come over her. I see the shift in her face and eyes as she relaxes and opens her lips to admit me into her warm mouth. She begins to suckle me tentatively at first. Then the lust seems to take over her body as she begins to swirl her tongue around the head and suck for all she is worth. Her head begins to bob up and down, deeper each time. Forcing me past her gag reflex, as if she needs to have me deep in her throat. Feeding her what she needs, giving her the life force she needs to survive.

I stop her as I feel the cum begin to build in my balls. I am not yet ready to give her my seed. She lets out a small whimper as I step back and tuck my cock into my pants. I help her stand and, turning her around, I remove the shackles. I reach up and grab the leather cuffs dangling from the ceiling and attach a wrist to each one. I attach the spreader bar to her ankles to make sure she is open to me. Nothing hidden or denied my probing.

Once she is bound properly, I pick up the light flogger. Time for a little warm up. I start on her sweet, pale ass, and soon have it glowing nicely with the stinging little flogger. At first she jumps with each lash across her tender flanks. Soon she relaxes into the sensations I am giving her. When they become too comfortable I move around to her front. I take out a second rope and bind her ample breasts. I want them standing up proud and ready for my lashes. Once they are tightly wrapped, and her nipples are jutting straight forward, I pick up the small flogger again and begin to torture her bountiful tits until they are covered with criss crossing lines. I pay particular attention to her sensitive nipples. They seem to grow even harder from the pain. I grab the nipple clamps and apply first one then the other. Causing her to gasp as I put each one on.

By this time her nipples are on fire and sensitive to the lightest touch. I reach down between her legs to feel that she is practically drippng. Her juices are running down the inside of her thighs. I plunge two fingers quickly into her hungry cunt, eliciting a deep moan as she bucks her hips. Trying to take me deeper inside of her. I pull them out, but she tries to push her hips forward to keep me inside her. I raise my fingers to her lips, but say nothing. She looks at me for a second, then takes her fingers into her mouth, sucking her juices off of them. This is when I see that her walls are rapidly falling down. She would never even kiss me before after I had gone down on her, now she was hungrily lapping her fluids from my fingers without a word.

I step to the dresser and grab the heavy flogger, and once again go to work on her round ass. I can feel the heat radiating from the tender orbs of her ass. It is getting to be a deep red, and I work down to lash her thighs as well. Making her grunt and moan with each strike. I look at her face and see tears begin to form on her lower lids. I stop for a moment and ask her if she needs me to stop. She looks deeply into my eyes, and shakes her head no with the slightest of motions. She is beginning to go deeper. I smile at her and tell her what a good slut she is, and go back to flogging her beautiful ass and thighs.

When they are the shade of red I like, I stop and set the flogger aside. I look to see that her cunt is drooling. Her juices are all the way down to her knees. I take my thumb and begin to pinch and rub her swollen clit. She almost cums instantly, but I pull away before she can. I quickly pull the clamps from her ravaged nipples, causing  her to inhale sharply as the blood rushes back into the compressed flesh. I gently suck the sore buds of flesh until the blood is back, then I give her a quick bite to remind her of what I like.

Finally I retrieve my favorite implement. The one she dreads most of all. The cane. The thing that I use to mark My slut. Her ass is well warmed by now, but I start gently tapping at first. Just giving her a little taste of my pain. I tap, then give her a hard smack. Leaving a beautiful welt across that tender ass. I do it again. Tap, Tap, Tap, Swish! The cane cuts through the air so she can hear it before she feels it's sting. I make welts at all angles up and down her ass and thighs. I then walk around to face her, and lightly tap the cane on her right nipple. It is still hard as stone, so it takes very little strength to make her jump. I alternate from one to the other, making her squeal as I torture her lovely hard nipples.

I can see she has about come to the end of her strength. I put the cane down, and beging to slowly slide first two, then three fingers inside her molten cunt. A guttural moan escapes her throat as her hips begin to move with the rythm of my fingers. As I fuck her with my hand I feel her getting closer and closer to her orgasm. The one I had been denying her all night. I can see the pleading look in her eyes. I ask her if she needs to cum. She whispers please. I ask her please what? She says please sir, and I begin to rub her G-spot  fast, and pinch her right nipple as hard as I can. Confusing her body with pleasure and pain at the same time. The combination overwhelms her body and her first orgasm rips through her body, releasing a scream from her throat. I don't stop, but switch to rubbing her swollen clit. She jumps from the contact as if she were shocked, and cums again. Over and over she cums as I switch back and forth from rubbing her clit and her G-spot. Clitoral then vaginal orgasm. Giving her body no rest. No chance to recover. She is panting and sweating, begging me to stop. I make her cum three more times before I relent. I have lost count of how many times she has cum, and I'm sure she has no idea. I force the orgasms from her body until she is spent.

I quickly release her arms from the cuffs and lower her to kneel on the ground. I pull my steel hard cock from my pants and begin to rub it across her face. Her face is slick with sweat, and now the pre-cum leaking from my cock. I am close from the act of torturing and pleasuring My slut. I feel the cum begin to build in me, and I begin to stroke myself as it starts to boil from my tight balls. My seed explodes all over her beautiful face as I jerk myself. She is too exhausted to help, but that is OK. I paint her lips and cheeks with my hot cum. It drips off of her chin onto her still bound breasts. and runs over her hard nipples. As the spurts subside I continue to gently rub my cock over her face. As I brush across her lips, she opens her mouth and unexpectedly takes me in. She lovingly sucks the last remains of my orgasm from me. I can feel it being drawn from inside me into her waiting mouth. I look down at her to see a contented smile as she nurses on my softening member.

I see it in her now. She has surrendered herself to me. She is now mine. Competely and without reservation. The walls are gone as if they never existed. She is now my submissive. My slut. All I will ever need or want. We are complete, and she will wear my marks always. Never will she be without at least one.

I gather her in my arms, remove the ropes from her tender breasts, and tuck her in bed. She will wear my seed on her face tonight. She will wake tomorrow knowing that she is mine. Her body is mine to use as I wish for my pleasure. She will be given intense pleasure as well, because I love to see her in orgasmic bliss. Watching her body contort in pleasure and pain. It feeds me to give her both. I need to taste her tears of joy and pain. It is what sustains me. I am a sadist, but one that loves to give pleasure as much as pain.

All these things I hope to do someday soon. For now they will remain a dream that I will work to make real.
I hope you all enjoyed reading this as much as I enjoyed writing it.

Thank you,

Monday, December 20, 2010

Wearing My mark...

I have a thing about wanting to mark My slut. I want to give her a bruise, or a welt, something for her to wear showing that her body is mine. Discreetly of course. Nothing that would make the casual observer think she were being abused. The other day she showed me a bruise on her breast where I had bitten her the night before while she was riding me. It brought a smile to my face. I don't know if she understood it or not, but she will. I want her to have a mark from me at all times. Something so she doesn't forget who owns her body. I want to leave welts on her ass from my cane. Beautiful criss cross marks of my love so that she feels me everytime she sits. The thought of her wearing my mark takes my breath away. I would like to tattoo her someday. By my own hand. Something simple and discreet that only we know about, but that she will know is there and will remind her of my love and desire even when I am not there.
What do you my readers think about marks. Do you Doms/Masters like leaving marks? Do you subs/slaves want to wear the mark of your Dom/Master. I want to hear from both sides how you feel about it. I've read that some Doms/Masters were mortified when it happened, and some subs/slaves that were nearly orgasmic to see a bruise left by their Master.
I appreciate all your feedback. I enjoy hearing what you all think. I am here to learn as well as try to inform.
Thank you,

Friday, December 17, 2010

Dinner tonight...

We went to dinner tonight. A rare treat, to celebrate the end of a long Holiday season at our son's school. After dinner, we came home and my wife gave me a BIG hug and said she loves me and is happy that the craziness is over. She told me she was going to bed early and sleeping in tomorrow to get some much needed rest.
She asked me if she was in trouble after she gets rested up. I smiled and told her she is in a lot of trouble. There is a lot of time to make up for, and a lot of training to do. I think there will probably be nightly training of one kind or another. I will definitely establish daily blowjobs to train her to not fear the act. I don't expect her to go to completion every day, but she will at least a couple times. I am going to talk to her tomorrow about the punishment spanking I want to give her. I intend to spank, flog, and cane her during my time off. Not all at once, but they will all make an appearance. She has taken all of them at times in the past, so I will just do it a little longer and harder than before and see how she handles it. I will keep a close eye on her reactions. There will also be quite a bit of bondage. She is getting better about being tied and shackled than she was at first.
I came up with a punishment for cumming without permission the other night. I want her to write to me why she thinks it is important that she asks permission. She hates writing things like this, but she needs to learn to communicate to me what she is feeling, and she needs to understand why I ask her to do things. There isn't a wrong answer. If she doesn't get the reason, I will educate her in it. I mostly just want to see how she views it at this time early in the process.
I think this will be a very good week, and really get us down the road a good ways to her being My sexy submissive. She is learning in subtle ways already. When she speaks to me in a disrespectful way, and I call her on it, she has immediately apologized every time without any argument at all. That is a very good sign. I read some blogs by sub women who struggle with that at times. Very normal of course. If she does struggle with it, she certainly keeps it to herself and trusts my judgement. Which is a very respectful and loving thing to do. I don't think she realizes how good she is doing. I think I need to let her know just how proud I am of her, and let her know just how far she has come, compared to where we started in August, on the brink of divorce. She told me she had actually gotten the paperwork to fill out. Her thought processes have made a 180degree turn. I think this is maybe what she always needed, but didn't realize it. A real man, not the immature abuser she was with before, to take care of and protect her. To give her boundaries and rules to keep her on the right path. A way to have a happy and loving family and marriage.
I spoke to my mother the other night, she doesn't know of our dynamic yet, but she knows of our difficulty before, and told her we now have an agreement that I basically run the household and things are happier. We discussed the fact that todays society has attempted to emasculate men and make them feel guilty about being a man. She knows about my older sister, so she may suspect about me by the way I was talking. She is very open about sex, so it wouldn't shock her.
Well, I've rambled enough tonight. Tomorrows post will hopefully be more focused and full of details about My sluts training.   

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Vacation...and a lot of training...

Ok, more like a staycation. We have no money to do anything. In fact his will be the first year in the last ten that we don't go visit my family due to lack of funds. I'm bummed, but I'll just make the most of it. Work on my Harley some, trying to customize it a little at a time.
The plus side is I hope we will have time for a lot of training. Our son is supposed to spend some time with the in-laws, and maybe stay overnight at a friends house. We have a lot of training time to catch up on. There hasn't been much in the last 6 weeks and I am very frustrated by that fact. After tomorrow My slut will have some time to focus on me now that the stuff at our son's school is done for awhile. I plan on some intense training to get her up to speed. I will make sure she doesn't feel intimidated or frightened, but I will push her a bit to see where she is in her thinking and acceptance of the situation. Plus I still have to give her the punishment for forgetting to ask permission to cum the other night. I'm going to talk to her about accepting an intense spanking to make amends for the many years she treated me badly and with disrespect. I think it is the only way I can get past the pain she gave me, by having her do it as her penance and to make amends. Then I will be able to forgive her, and put the past to rest. I don't know what her reaction will be, but I guess I'll find out.
 I'm very excited to see what we can accomplish this week with some time to devote to each other.

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Play and communication...

Last night we got to have some alone time and some good communication. He had to go "talk" while our son played some computer games. When we have short time. I always use the Pocket Rocket she loves to get her ready quicker. As soon as it hit her clit, she started cumming. It happened so quick she forgot to ask permission to cum. I guess I'll have to come up with a punishment...Darn. She begged to be let off the hook because it happened faster than usual. I told her sorry, it doesn't work that way. After she had a couple orgasms, I told her my turn. She said, "You want me to suck your cock right?" This was actually a big step. I usually have to tell her. This time she just knew. I complimented her for that later. She also did a better job sucking me this time. She is still working past old dislikes for the act from her previous marriage. I told her she was sucking me like a good slut, and it made her giggle around my cock. It makes her feel good when I compliment her that way, even though it also embarrasses her a bit. She still isn't used to being told she's good in bed. After a nice blowjob. She begged to ride me. It had been awhile, and that is now her favorite position. I told her to get that wet cunt on top of me, and fuck me like a good slut. She certainly did. She came just sliding down on me. After having a few more orgasms she rode me hard until I had a great orgasm.
Afterwards we talked about how things were more relaxed since the pressure was off her to make a decision. She even told me she can't wait for things to calm down at my son's school so we can get back to her training.  She seems much more enthusiastic to learn what I have to teach her now. I can't wait for many more lessons.

Monday, December 13, 2010

A realization...

I had a realization last night. Here I've been waiting for My slut to accept being my sub, when she already had. She didn't say that I'll do whatever you want in the bedroom, but she has been trying different things when I wanted her to try them. Isn't that what learning about submission is all about. She doesn't yet know what she likes and has to try different things until she knows hwat works for both of us. That is what she is already doing. I told her as much last night, and she agreed that it was the case. I think it took a weight off of her shoulders. She doesn't have to come out and say anything, just keep working with me to learn new parts of submission. She already has told me her body belongs to me. To use as I desire. Respective of her limits of course. I just wanted to share that with everyone. I am still learning as I go along, as is she. I guess that is why it look me awhile to realise that I already had what I wanted. This takes a lot of pressure off of both of us.

Sunday, December 12, 2010


Thanks to all my viewers and followers. I never thought I would have this many people looking at what I had to say. I hope I can keep you all amused and interested with my trials and successes. I hope things get more submissive around here to give you all some more interesting stories.

Better today...

Sorry for the downer of a post last night. I'm much better today after getting a little "pep talk" from a friend last night. I'm going to just work on doing some subtle dominant things. Working them into our daily life instead of waiting for My slut to give me a decision. Maybe she is feeling under pressure to voice her decision, and if I just go as if she made her declaration, I think things will be fine. I will always respect her limits of course, but if I just work as if she has submitted, she may realize after awhile that no decision need be made. We will already be living a D/s lifestyle. She has already stated many times that she will submit to me, but maybe actually saying the words are too intimidating for her. I will treat her lovingly as my sub, and I will act as her Dom to show her how it will be. That it isn't as scary as she thinks it will be.
My hunger is still there in a very intense way, but maybe I can sate it by just taking her in hand and controlling her in a non-threatening way. Have her be submissive in a way that doesn't frighten her. I think things will work out just fine for us.
Thank you for pointing out some things for me friend. Your insight is very welcome.

The hunger...

When I have these needs well up inside me. Threatening to break free, I call it "The hunger".
It is a physical need to dominate her, to take her as my own. To control her completely. To make her move and act as I command. I want her to do exactly as I want to please me. She will receive pleasure like she never imagined in return for this, but I must have her as I desire. I want her kneeling before me, wanting to please me with every part of her mind and body. I respect and know her limits, but I will push her right up against them. Take her beyond what she thinks she can handle, but not more than she can handle. She doesn't trust herself, or I think me for that matter, to be able to handle what I need from her. She is much stronger than she can imagine, and I want to show her that strength. We will never be able to advance beyond where we are now until she lets herself go into my care and control. We are kind of at an impasse. I don't think she sees it, or if she does, she doesn't seem to mind being there. We can go no farther without her trusting me. I feel myself pulling back a bit, not being able to convince her to move on. I try to stay postive, but it is so hard when there is nothing I can do to spur her on. Nothing I can say or do that will reassure her that she will be safe in my care. It is all up to her where we go. I cannot and will not force her to the next level. I can lead her, but not drag her there. For now I will just have to step back and see what she does. I give her info to try to help her, but get no reponse or acknowledgement of the info I give her. She says from time to time that she is almost there, but I can't keep jumping to conclusions that don't materialise.
I will continue to post stories and scenes of what I want and need, but I don't see me posting anything else about us until she makes her decision. This saddens me greatly, but I don't know what else to do.
Sorry for such a downer of a post tonight. I hope they will get better soon.


Friday, December 10, 2010

Secretary, and other thoughts...

I watched the movie Secretary again tonight. I don't know who wrote it, but they either have an insight to the D/s life or did a lot of research. The scenes are so accurate in the way they interact with each other, and the way he dominates her. You can see the struggle they both have in realizing the feelings they have, and not understanding them at first. I want My slut to watch it with me. I think it will help her understand a little better the way it works. The love that flows from it. I think I am going to order it online so we can watch it when we have the time. It always seems to come on cable when it isn't a good time for both of us.

Lately I have been at an almost fever pitch in my hunger. It seems the nearer My slut gets to letting go, the more frantic my thoughts get about taking her. I want to control her in every way. I know that is probably just a pipe dream, but I can always hope. I will be happy just dominating her in the bedroom at first, but I hope it will continue beyond that. I read of 24/7 D/s situations, and that is what I desire. Will it be feasible? Who knows, but I would like to find out. I want her to give me her very best, whatever that may be. I think she underestimates herself in what she can accomplish. If she trusts me completely, I think she is capable of amazing things. If she trusts me to guide her, I will be able to help her let go of all her fears and doubts. All her bad baggage from her past. All her guilt for things she did, or thinks she should have done. She can be an amazingly passionate woman when she lets her mind be quiet and doesn't try to over think things. Just react and feel. I've seen looks of just wanton lust and desire on her face at rare occasions when she just lets her body go without worrying about what is going on, or how she should be acting. At times she tries to act like a good girl should, whatever that is supposed to be, instead of just letting the inner slut of hers go.
I will continue to work at bringing that slut out to play whenever possible. She is such a nasty girl, and very fun to play with. I want to have her kneeling in front of me, begging to please me like a good sub should. We'll get there in time. I know we will. She will ask to wear My collar too. I just feel it, even though she doesn't know it yet.
I love her very much, and want to set her desires free to roam.

Flash Fiction Friday...

He walked in to find his two lovely slaves kneeling together awaiting his commands. He smiled at the pleasure they would bring him, and he would give them.
"Come to me.", he ordered, and waited as they crawled to his feet and each one hugged a leg. "Pleasure me with your mouths. Show me how much you appreciate being mine."
They took turns engulfing his turgid member with their hot mouths. Reaching over to the table, he took the cane in hand. They were both shivering with desire and fear, knowing what was to come.
As they continued their ministrations he caned first one shapely ass then the other. Making them squeal and moan around his erection.  "It was going to be a great night", he thought.

Feeling a little better...

Well we have been getting better so we were able to play and train just a bit. When we were talking the other night standing in the kitchen, I placed my hand on her throat, just holding her. She has a problem with this due to her ex liking to choke her years ago. She tensed up a bit, but I assured her I will hold her like this from time to time, but I will never squeeze or try to choke her. She relaxed and just let me hold her like that while we talked.
Last night we had the opportunity to make love and it was very good. It's been over two weeks due to our colds. I once again held her throat as I fucked her, and she was better about it. She told me after we were done that she is about ready to be my submissive. Just a little more to reconcile in her mind to let go. I think my patience is finally about to pay off, even though it has been very difficult to remain patient. I love My slut very much, and can't wait to have all of her as mine.

Friday, December 3, 2010

Flash Fiction Friday...

She was enjoying the warm morning when she felt him grab her from behind. She hadn't heard him coming, and it startled her. He ripped her blouse open exposing her perky breasts. Her nipples hardened as she felt his face, scratchy and roughened by the three days growth of beard,  slide across her neck as he sank his teeth into the side of her neck. Undoing her pants, he pushed his fingers into her already wet sex as he left his marks on her neck. Going right to work on her swollen clit he brought her to a sudden, unexpected orgasm as his he held her neck in his teeth. The pain in conjunction with the pleasure left her weak and needing his support. He quickly took her from behind and with a grunt, filled her with a hot demonstration of his power over her.

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Under the weather...

Me and My slut have been fighting colds for the last week or so. She was nice enough to share it with me when we were playing on Thanksgiving. There hasn't been any training or any much of anything. Hopefully we will be feeling better soon. She is feeling better already and I fight these things off pretty quick most of the time. Thanks for reading. Next week should bring more interesting reading. I'm trying to convince her to go to a "spanking class" next week. Sounds like a lot of fun! Wish me luck.