Thursday, September 30, 2010

How it all started for me...

I've always been a big fan of porn. I've always had an open mind about checking out various forms and styles. One day about 11 years ago I was perusing the shelves at the local adult video store when I came across the bondage section. I thought, "What the hell!", Why not. I rented what looked like a hot video, and a whole new world was opened to me. Something deep inside me was awakened. The scene of a woman in ecstacy from being given pain, and orgasmic at being tightly bound. A light had gone on in my brain. I must learn more. I began looking for books and stories to feed my need for knowledge. I would rent videos, but I knew that these were dramatised for erotic effect, and not the true deep essence of BDSM. At this time I didn't have a computer, so I didn't have access to the wonderful world of the internet.
About a year after my awakening, my oldest sister came to me and admitted that she was a dominant and had been living that way for a few years. Who says genetics don't have anything to do with what we like. Neither of us were raised that way.We would talk for hours on end about the "lifestyle" we had both found inside ourselves. She is a source of great inspiration and knowledge. I also began to read voraciously anything I could find on dominance and submission. I've recently discovered that I have a strong sadistic streak in me. The thing that really gets to me, is the thought of a woman taking pain from me simply because she knows I love giving it to her. Enduring it to please me. Taking all she can, and then just a little more, to make me happy. I love to see tears of pain and joy.
My wife is very new to this. she has really only been trying it for about two months, but I see little signs here and there of her beginning to grasp the concept of submission. It is not a natural thing for her as I have previously written, and the fact that she is learning for me makes me very proud of her.
I deeply love My sexy slut, and I make sure she knows it every day.

Saturday, September 25, 2010

What I like...

I like tight bondage, giving erotic pain, corsets, and of course the submission of My slut. She is learning all about these things. She knows I like them, and she is slowly working her way toward satisfying all my needs. So far I am very proud of what she has been able to do. She has some difficulty with letting go completely due to an earlier bad relationship. I am helping her do that a day at a time. Her favorites so far are hot candle wax and the small flogger. Quite a pleasant surprise to me. She is not a natural submissive, so it is taking a lot of hard work on her part. I look forward to teaching her the joys of complete submission. She is able to have multiple orgasms so I make a point to give her as many as she can handle, and sometimes a few more. Did I mention I also love giving forced orgasms? I love to make her cum so hard she cries. That's when I know I've done my job.

Thursday, September 23, 2010

her experiences...

So far she has had a few experiences that she never thought herself capable of. She has surprisingly developed an enjoyment of having hot wax poured liberally over the erect nipples of her large breasts. She is a voluptuous woman with 46DDD breasts, that have wonderful large nipples that I love to tease to full erection. She is still unsure of being tied up, but I have given her a chest harness a few times and tied her legs to the headboard. once. I made her a pair of leather cuffs a few years ago, and she is now beginning to get comfortable wearing them. She looks amazingly sexy bound that way. I have a small flogger that she is able to handle in small doses. A few nights ago she took her first, light, session with the cane. She made me proud in the way she handled it. Immediately afterwards she had a tough time processing what had happened, so I just held her for a few minutes until she calmed down. The next day she was fine and had no after effects from the session. I've pretty much shown her all of my desires, and now it is just time to slowly increase the intensity to the level I desire. We will take it slowly so she can adapt. I look forward to taking her on the road to my twisted, wonderful world. I think she will make a wonderful, sexy submissive. Her mind is beginning to open in ways I never imagined possible, just two months ago.

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

My initial post...

I am a novice Dom. I've been learning about My chosen "proclivity" for about a decade. My lovely wife has, until recently, been less than interested in joining me in my pursuits. After a tough and nearly cataclysmic six years, we had a blow-up that nearly ended our union. Upon reflection, my lovely bride realized the pain she had been carrying from her past and using to keep me at a distance. She has since let go of all that and welcomed me back into her heart.
The result of that, our sex and love life has become a completely different thing. She has finally let down her guard and began the long trip down the road of submission to her loving husband. It will be a long and sometimes halting trip, but she has shown a willingness to learn what she can to make me happy. I look forward to learning along with her, and relating the ups and downs of our adventure on these pages.