Thursday, September 30, 2010

How it all started for me...

I've always been a big fan of porn. I've always had an open mind about checking out various forms and styles. One day about 11 years ago I was perusing the shelves at the local adult video store when I came across the bondage section. I thought, "What the hell!", Why not. I rented what looked like a hot video, and a whole new world was opened to me. Something deep inside me was awakened. The scene of a woman in ecstacy from being given pain, and orgasmic at being tightly bound. A light had gone on in my brain. I must learn more. I began looking for books and stories to feed my need for knowledge. I would rent videos, but I knew that these were dramatised for erotic effect, and not the true deep essence of BDSM. At this time I didn't have a computer, so I didn't have access to the wonderful world of the internet.
About a year after my awakening, my oldest sister came to me and admitted that she was a dominant and had been living that way for a few years. Who says genetics don't have anything to do with what we like. Neither of us were raised that way.We would talk for hours on end about the "lifestyle" we had both found inside ourselves. She is a source of great inspiration and knowledge. I also began to read voraciously anything I could find on dominance and submission. I've recently discovered that I have a strong sadistic streak in me. The thing that really gets to me, is the thought of a woman taking pain from me simply because she knows I love giving it to her. Enduring it to please me. Taking all she can, and then just a little more, to make me happy. I love to see tears of pain and joy.
My wife is very new to this. she has really only been trying it for about two months, but I see little signs here and there of her beginning to grasp the concept of submission. It is not a natural thing for her as I have previously written, and the fact that she is learning for me makes me very proud of her.
I deeply love My sexy slut, and I make sure she knows it every day.

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