I've been asked by a few readers why I allow My slut to do things that are detrimental to her training. Well, the simple answer is that she isn't my submissive yet. I know I haven't written about it for awhile so some of my newer readers don't necessarily know our dynamic. The physical part is much easier for her than the mental part of giving herself over to my control. She was mentally and physically abused by her previous husband so she has fears about giving up control to anyone, not just me. She says she does want to learn to be able to submit to me, but it still scares her.
She trusts me, she says, but she is afraid to lose herself like she did before when she was basically brainwashed to do whatever she was told under threat of violence. She's afraid that if she gives me control she won't be able to get it back. I have assured her that I'm not taking control, she is giving it to me of her own free will and I'm not going to destroy who she is. I just want to help her be a better her. Get rid of the negative parts and build up the positive parts. She'll get there eventually, if I don't go insane before we get there.
Between the stress of finances and trying to get her to submit, I'm beginning to mentally overload.
Hi William,
ReplyDeleteLet me see if I can explain how I feel about it so that it actually makes some sense. lol
The way I feel about being submissive is that I almost have more power then my Dom does. I chose to give him my submission, I can chose to take it back anytime I want to. If he does something that is totally out of line guess what, I don't belong to you anymore. The End.
Being submissive is a choice, being abused you don't get a choice. It is something that is done TO you, not WITH you.
Does she read your blog? I ask because if she ever wants to talk to me or if she would feel comfortable talking to me, I am more then willing to. Or she can contact me on Yahoo. MissCherrie78. I don't know if I would be much help but at least she could get her feelings out to someone else. :)
I feel about it exactly like you do, and I have told her as much. I told her if she decides to submit to me it's not a lifetime contract that can't be undone. She still doesn't seem to grasp that fully I believe.
ReplyDeleteNo, she doesn't know about my blog at all. I was going to tell her, but I think if I did I might censor myself for her, and this is the one outlet where I can say anything I want about what I feel and need. Maybe someday I will, but not right now.
I do appreciate the offer though. I've had similar offers from a couple other sub women and it means a lot to me that you would want to help her, and me in the process.
Thank you Cherrie,
William
I fell upon your blog and spent some time reading some of your older posts. Just want to say you have a very nice blog.
ReplyDeleteI found your post titled "An Observation" interesting. Personally, I enjoy reading most blogs that focus on D/s relationships, regardless of which gender is the Dom/me. I've found that the dynamic that exists in successful relationships is transferable across genders and sexual orientations.
Again, keep up the good work!
That makes sense. I didn't tell Dom about my blog for a while either. I was just shy about how open I was and how I worded things.
ReplyDeleteIf there is ever anything I can help with please feel free to let me know. You have my Yahoo ID. :)