I've been asked by a few readers why I allow My slut to do things that are detrimental to her training. Well, the simple answer is that she isn't my submissive yet. I know I haven't written about it for awhile so some of my newer readers don't necessarily know our dynamic. The physical part is much easier for her than the mental part of giving herself over to my control. She was mentally and physically abused by her previous husband so she has fears about giving up control to anyone, not just me. She says she does want to learn to be able to submit to me, but it still scares her.
She trusts me, she says, but she is afraid to lose herself like she did before when she was basically brainwashed to do whatever she was told under threat of violence. She's afraid that if she gives me control she won't be able to get it back. I have assured her that I'm not taking control, she is giving it to me of her own free will and I'm not going to destroy who she is. I just want to help her be a better her. Get rid of the negative parts and build up the positive parts. She'll get there eventually, if I don't go insane before we get there.
Between the stress of finances and trying to get her to submit, I'm beginning to mentally overload.