Somedays I just don't have a clue where this relationship is going. It seems like if I push to get things going where I want them, she gets mad about it. If I lay back to see how things are going to go, she reverts back to her old habits.
Saturday I wanted to play, but she wasn't in the mood. Sunday her period started. So another week of nothing after the last few weeks of hardly anything. I'm a patient man, but damn it! I don't know if she is really interested in trying things I want, or if she is just going through the motions to try to keep me just satisfied enough to not want to break up. She seems to be going backward very gradually, like she's doing it subtly in the hopes I won't notice. I notice everything. She seems to want to do less and less each time. I'm not going anywhere, but my needs aren't getting met. I don't want to go outside of my marriage for what I need, but I can only be so patient. The last ten years took all of my patience. There isn't much left.
I don't know what to do. I can lead, but I can't force her to follow. If she's not interested in really submitting to me, there is nothing I can do, or would want to do, to force her. I guess I'm just at a tough spot right now with no clear path at this time. I'm going to keep trying to make this work, but your guess is as good as mine as to where we are going from here.