Thank you to all my new anonymous commenters. I'm so glad I fixed my blog. I didn't even know I was blocking anyone.
Anyway, I have decided to go a different direction with our relationship. Taking things slower and trying to drag her feelings out of her. I have offered to stop several times and she always told me she doesn't want to. I'm just going to do it and sit down and try to really find out what she wants. I have asked her many times what she wants, and gotten no answer.
She read my story today, and told me she needs to process it before she tells me what she thinks. This has in the past lead to her never mentioning it again...We'll see.
We are going to have a sit down tonight hopefully and clear the air a bit. Like a lot of you have said, we are not in the same book, much less the same page.
My stories are written to her on her request. She said she thought they might help her learn more about what I want and need in a non-threatening way. Where I'm not asking her to actively do it. Some she has loved, and some she has not liked. She knows about my dark side and understands the difference between abuse and what I want to do, at least that is what she has told me.
Hpefully things don't shut down completely, but changes do need to be made and now. I hope to have more positive news in my next post.
I have gotten a lot of good advice in the last couple days, and as someone still learning, it is very much appreciated. While I've been reading and thinking about this for over a decade, we have only been working on it for a year.