She asked me a question in relation to my last post, and I didn't want to just leave a long comment that might not get read.
She wanted to know how much My slut would have to do to satisfy the sadist in me. If I would be happy even if she couldn't take all my pain. I wanted to try to amswer that here the best I could.
It isn't necessary that she be able to take the most intense pain I want to give. I know that wouold only be possible by a true masochist. As far as I know she isn't one....As far as I know. If she makes a serious effort to do her best, I will be happy with that. I do want to be able to give her quite intense pain, but I am realistic. As far as how far is far enough. Honestly I can't answer that right now. I think her attitude will dictate that. If she is trying to take as much as she can, and wants to push her limits as far as she can, I will certainly be satisfied with that.
I feel that if she also adds to that her submission, it will temper my need to take the pain side of it farther. I know there is always a give and take. She has limits as almost every sub does. I will always respect those limits.
She is actually able to take a fair amount of pain when you consider the wax, Wartenberg wheel, cane and flogger. She actually loves the flogger and wax, so there is a lot to work with there. If I can get her to trust me and do more bondage that would give me another outlet for the dark side of my personality. When I bound her tits and covered them with hot wax, that pleased the sadist in me. I don't just slowly drip the wax on, I pour it fairly quickly. Making her gasp. I get turned on just thinking about it. Watching it pour over her hard nipples is extremely HOT to me.
I think she will be able to satisfy the sadist in me. Maybe not to the extreme that I desire, but how often does that really happen if you are in a marriage. Especially considering she didn't go into the marriage completely understanding what I needed like I thought she did.