My last post referred to the fact that I am in withdrawal. I'm having a really strong desire to give My slut pain. I want to give her a hard caning. I want to leave heavy marks that are sure to stay for days. Not just the couple moderate stinging lashes she will only let me do now, not the stripes that last 5 minutes. I don't know if she is up to it, but that doesn't stop the desire. I am going to talk to her tonight and tell her about how I am feeling. I have no idea how she will react, but she knows I have these urges and I have to tell her that I am having a difficult time right now keeping them reined in without an outlet.
I hope she will be up to taking a heavier caning. I will just explain to her that, yes it will hurt, probably quite a bit, but it will not last and I will make it up to her. She may cry, but I will hold her and comfort her afterwards. It will also make me extremely happy and give me some release from this angst. Will it work? I haven't a clue. I hope so.
I have faith that if I am honest with her about how much I need this, and assure her that she will be paid back in spades in pleasure to offset the bit of pain she takes for me, she may agree. I am cautiously optimistic.
Wish me luck.