I posted a new story on my other blog. I hope it satisfies the masochistic sluts that read it. You know who you are...Grins!!!
Enjoy!!!
William
http://thedarknessinwilliamsmind.blogspot.com/2011/11/his-plaything.html
Sunday, November 27, 2011
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
A quick update...
Not a lot has been going on here. My slut has been a little under the weather. Not bad, but just off. Hence no play. We did have a little fun last week, but she seemed to be going through the motions a bit. We are going to be talking about that. Is that the best she will be able to do, or was it just an off day.
She did make me angry tonight, and after I calmed down, I called her on it. She has wanted to adopt for quite awhile. I have not been receptive to it because of the way she has been treating me. As in barely noticing me for years. Well today she "mentioned it" to our son. Of course he ran with it. She claims she didn't mean him to, but I think she is being less than truthful. I have no proof, but I know how she thinks. I just let her know that I didn't appreciate it and it better not happen again.
I hope this long weekend will result in some good play.
I just wanted to let everyone know I didn't fall off the face of the earth. I hope everyone has a
Happy Thanksgiving.
William
She did make me angry tonight, and after I calmed down, I called her on it. She has wanted to adopt for quite awhile. I have not been receptive to it because of the way she has been treating me. As in barely noticing me for years. Well today she "mentioned it" to our son. Of course he ran with it. She claims she didn't mean him to, but I think she is being less than truthful. I have no proof, but I know how she thinks. I just let her know that I didn't appreciate it and it better not happen again.
I hope this long weekend will result in some good play.
I just wanted to let everyone know I didn't fall off the face of the earth. I hope everyone has a
Happy Thanksgiving.
William
Saturday, November 19, 2011
The Darkest so far...
I wrote a story last night on a challenge from a friend of mine. It crawled up from the darkest part in my mind. I hope some of you enjoy it.
http://thedarknessinwilliamsmind.blogspot.com/2011/11/tormented.html?zx=868dec33807445b6
William
http://thedarknessinwilliamsmind.blogspot.com/2011/11/tormented.html?zx=868dec33807445b6
William
Thursday, November 17, 2011
I got a VBA...
My wonderful readers maui girl and sweet kitty sub who nominated me for a Versatile Blogger Award. I am touched and honored.
So seven things you might not know about me.
1. I was a virgin until I was 23. I was horribly shy and had little self confidence.
2. I started going bald at a young age. Probably didn't help with #1.
3. I'm 6' and 175lbs. No matter what I eat or do I stay about the same. Fast metabolism.
4. I am the only male sibling. I have three sisters.
5. My oldest sister is a Domme.
6. My nephews wife is a sub who's blog I follow.
7. I never knew I could love to write so much, or that I had a penchant for it.
Now the hard part. Nominating just 15 blogs that I follow. There are so many good ones, but I will do my best.
1. Vesta's Submission , the very first blog I ever started following, and she was my first follower. Smart and sexy lady.
2. Knotty little monkey , She is a funny, sexy lady who like all of us, have daily struggles. She is thinking of quitting her blog, so go say hi and try to convince her she should stay with us. She's a very dear friend.
3. maui girl , A fairly new friend, but a very special one. I would have nominated her even if she hadn't nominated me.
4. Neo Dom Tom , Me and Tom have had a very similar path in our dominant lives. Weirdly similar sometimes. Great guy and blog.
5. cuddly kitten , I've read her blog for quite some time. A very full life for such a young lady. Quite a varied blog.
6. An Owned Life , Very insightful and instructional for any Dom or Domme out there.
7. Finding my submission , sin is a sexy lady who writes wonderfully and I love hearing about her adventures.
8. A Dauntless journey , A fellow dominant, though much more experienced than me. Plus FAF is hot!!!
9. The definition , Her blog ranges from the mundane day to day things in lief, to smoking hot descriptions of her submission.
10. Dangerous lilly , I lovely lass who isn't shy about sharing photos of her luscious body, and glimpses of her sexy mind.
11. Mrs Discontented , An English lady who finds ways to get the kinkiness she needs, even though her husband is completely vanilla.
12. Spanked army wife , This lady struggles with trying to get pregnant, multiple miscarriages, yet stays positive and submissive to her soldier hubby. Loves being spanked of course!
13. baby girl , she writes some of the hottest stories I have read in the blogosphere. She usually leaves me at attention...Grins!!!
14. Unapologetically kinky , although we butted heads awhile back, DY has a very fun and sexy blog, even though she doesn't write graphically about her sex life.
15. The submissive butterfly , Still looking for her Dom, but she has been one of my most consistent commenters. Long before I ever followed her blog. I try to make sure I read her's every day.
There is my list, in no particular order. Now to let everyone know I nominated them...Laughs!!!
I hope you all enjoy some blogs you may not have known about.
William
So seven things you might not know about me.
1. I was a virgin until I was 23. I was horribly shy and had little self confidence.
2. I started going bald at a young age. Probably didn't help with #1.
3. I'm 6' and 175lbs. No matter what I eat or do I stay about the same. Fast metabolism.
4. I am the only male sibling. I have three sisters.
5. My oldest sister is a Domme.
6. My nephews wife is a sub who's blog I follow.
7. I never knew I could love to write so much, or that I had a penchant for it.
Now the hard part. Nominating just 15 blogs that I follow. There are so many good ones, but I will do my best.
1. Vesta's Submission , the very first blog I ever started following, and she was my first follower. Smart and sexy lady.
2. Knotty little monkey , She is a funny, sexy lady who like all of us, have daily struggles. She is thinking of quitting her blog, so go say hi and try to convince her she should stay with us. She's a very dear friend.
3. maui girl , A fairly new friend, but a very special one. I would have nominated her even if she hadn't nominated me.
4. Neo Dom Tom , Me and Tom have had a very similar path in our dominant lives. Weirdly similar sometimes. Great guy and blog.
5. cuddly kitten , I've read her blog for quite some time. A very full life for such a young lady. Quite a varied blog.
6. An Owned Life , Very insightful and instructional for any Dom or Domme out there.
7. Finding my submission , sin is a sexy lady who writes wonderfully and I love hearing about her adventures.
8. A Dauntless journey , A fellow dominant, though much more experienced than me. Plus FAF is hot!!!
9. The definition , Her blog ranges from the mundane day to day things in lief, to smoking hot descriptions of her submission.
10. Dangerous lilly , I lovely lass who isn't shy about sharing photos of her luscious body, and glimpses of her sexy mind.
11. Mrs Discontented , An English lady who finds ways to get the kinkiness she needs, even though her husband is completely vanilla.
12. Spanked army wife , This lady struggles with trying to get pregnant, multiple miscarriages, yet stays positive and submissive to her soldier hubby. Loves being spanked of course!
13. baby girl , she writes some of the hottest stories I have read in the blogosphere. She usually leaves me at attention...Grins!!!
14. Unapologetically kinky , although we butted heads awhile back, DY has a very fun and sexy blog, even though she doesn't write graphically about her sex life.
15. The submissive butterfly , Still looking for her Dom, but she has been one of my most consistent commenters. Long before I ever followed her blog. I try to make sure I read her's every day.
There is my list, in no particular order. Now to let everyone know I nominated them...Laughs!!!
I hope you all enjoy some blogs you may not have known about.
William
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
A confession...
I have to confess. When I told My slut that I was going to stop the BDSM in our relationship, It was a bit of a ruse. A risky one, but a ruse none the less. I know her and when she gets mired down and loses her way, no amount of my cajoling can get her back on track. She needs a swift kick in the ass. I took a calculated gamble that this would jump start her and get her back on track. I was about 95% sure it would work, but it could have bitten me in the ass.
A little over a year ago when we were on the verge of divorce, it took the threat of divorce to make her realize she was screwing up so badly. I didn't do that on purpose, she was the one who walked out for no good reason. She accused me of something I didn't do, and when she left, I didn't ask her back. That made her wake up. While I didn't plan it, I learned from it.
I do take responsibility for letting her get to that point. A mistake I won't make again. I have to make sure I catch her when she first starts to slip, not let her get too far gone. A good sign that she is indeed back on the path is that when I got home today she had cleaned up her nightstand. It had been a disaster for about 9 months, and I have asked her many times to clean it up to no avail. Today it's done. I made a big point of thanking her and showing her a lot of love for it.
In answer to Miss Only His, what will keep her in line from now on is me. I am still learning and I still struggle with trying to be the good guy. I need to just be her husband and make sure she stays on track.
Here is the list of things we agreed to do for now. Things may be added later, but she hates not knowing what is coming next, and this list gives her a sense of knowing what could happen on any day.
Flogging
Caning
The crop
The dildo
Hot wax
Wartenberg wheel
The cuffs I made her - arms in front
The vibe - To give her the last most intense orgasm only, not to get her going. I love to feel her wet cunt.
Breast bondage
Cumming on her face, and eventually cumming in her mouth when she is ready.
Having to ask permission before cumming
No panties in bed - except during her period.
I also reminded her that she will have to constantly work to keep her "slut card". She agreed that she did lose sight of that before.
I hope that with the pressure off, she will relax and eventually be able to submit to me even more. If she can't she can't, but I think she may surprise all of us. It will just take her a lot longer than I hoped for. That's OK. I've waited over ten years, I can give her a little more time.
Thank you to all who gave me encouragement and kicks in the ass as well. Here's to the new slower, but hopefully more succesful path.
William
A little over a year ago when we were on the verge of divorce, it took the threat of divorce to make her realize she was screwing up so badly. I didn't do that on purpose, she was the one who walked out for no good reason. She accused me of something I didn't do, and when she left, I didn't ask her back. That made her wake up. While I didn't plan it, I learned from it.
I do take responsibility for letting her get to that point. A mistake I won't make again. I have to make sure I catch her when she first starts to slip, not let her get too far gone. A good sign that she is indeed back on the path is that when I got home today she had cleaned up her nightstand. It had been a disaster for about 9 months, and I have asked her many times to clean it up to no avail. Today it's done. I made a big point of thanking her and showing her a lot of love for it.
In answer to Miss Only His, what will keep her in line from now on is me. I am still learning and I still struggle with trying to be the good guy. I need to just be her husband and make sure she stays on track.
Here is the list of things we agreed to do for now. Things may be added later, but she hates not knowing what is coming next, and this list gives her a sense of knowing what could happen on any day.
Flogging
Caning
The crop
The dildo
Hot wax
Wartenberg wheel
The cuffs I made her - arms in front
The vibe - To give her the last most intense orgasm only, not to get her going. I love to feel her wet cunt.
Breast bondage
Cumming on her face, and eventually cumming in her mouth when she is ready.
Having to ask permission before cumming
No panties in bed - except during her period.
I also reminded her that she will have to constantly work to keep her "slut card". She agreed that she did lose sight of that before.
I hope that with the pressure off, she will relax and eventually be able to submit to me even more. If she can't she can't, but I think she may surprise all of us. It will just take her a lot longer than I hoped for. That's OK. I've waited over ten years, I can give her a little more time.
Thank you to all who gave me encouragement and kicks in the ass as well. Here's to the new slower, but hopefully more succesful path.
William
Sunday, November 13, 2011
A little Darkness...
I posted another little story on my other blog. I hope you enjoy.
William
http://thedarknessinwilliamsmind.blogspot.com/2011/11/well-used.html
William
http://thedarknessinwilliamsmind.blogspot.com/2011/11/well-used.html
Saturday, November 12, 2011
Starting over...
We talked some today about where we go from here. She still wants me to call her My slut. She said she loves it. She also said she wants to continue with the flogger and cane. She likes the flogger and can tolerate the cane. I'm sure she will also take the crop, she never minded that. The issue to be still discussed is if she will be interested in limited bondage. Primarily breast bondage. She isn't restrained at all when I just wrap the rope around her luscious tits, so that may work for her on an occasional basis. We still have to sit down and work out the details, a contract of sorts I guess.
The crazy thing that I don't quite understand is, she wants me to still write her stories. Even when she doesn't want to try the things in there, she still likes reading them. You women are a confusing lot...But I still love you!
We did have some very hot, yet mostly vanilla sex today. She gave me a good blowjob, until we were interupted by our son needing help with something. So I had to put on my robe and go help him. When I got back, she asked if she did a good job, and I told her I was about to stop her anyway because I was getting close to cumming. She asked if I wanted to use the flogger and cane, but I thought maybe we would take a break from that this time. She asked for the vibe and I told her it really annoys me that she always asks for it right away. It makes me feel like it's turning her on and not me. I told her if she is just patient, I will give it to her. I started rubbing her pussy, feeling her growing wetter. I told her I love to feel her wet cunt, to feel her clit stiffening under my fingers. I stroked her hard little button and slid my fingers up and down her slippery sex. She wanted to know if she still had to ask to cum, and I told her not this time. That is something else that will have to be discussed later.
She asked me to rub her clit faster and I did. Her back beginning to arch up as her orgasm approached. She came with great force and she was soaking wet. After she came multiple times she said she wanted me to fuck her really bad. I told her no, I wanted her to fuck me. She thought for a second then said OK. I told her to get her wet cunt over here and ride me. She laughed and did so.
She climbed on top and slowly slide down my hard cock. I slid in quite easily due her extreme wetness. She started to really grind her cunt down on me, and I could tell by the look on her face that she was having those little tremors of orgasm she has when she is really turned on and riding me.
As she fucked me, her cunt was making squelching noises from her being so wet. That is not a common occurance since she is usually in too big of a hurry to really get that wet. She was giggling in embarrasment at the sound, but I told her not to be. It felt great and I could feel her juices running down over my balls. It felt wonderful.
Her arms started getting tired after awhile, so she laid down on top of me as I fucked up into her. We kissed a lot. Very passionately. Not like she usually kisses me. She has a tendency to hold back with her kisses, but not today.
After awhile I asked her if she wanted me to get on top, and she said she wanted me to cum in her in that position. So she lifted herself up again, having rested her arms, and she ground her cunt onto my cock as I pushed up into her until I groaned and filled her with the biggest load I had in quite awhile. Taking longer always results in me shooting a larger load. When I first started cumming, she said "Oh my."...laughs!!! Once I was done cumming, she commented that it was one of the best fucks we'd ever had...grins!!!
After she climbed off of me to go clean up, I saw that she had soaked my cock and balls with her juices. Very sexy...
So she went and took a shower and I cleaned myself up and got dressed. I came into the living room and sat down to relax. After her shower she came out with a big smile on her face, gave me a kiss and a hug, and leaning in close to my ear, she asked me if she earned her slut name again. I told her yes, but she has to keep working to keep it. She kissed me and said OK.
So in all it was a great day. It looks like we will have a somewhat kinky relationship involving not much submission. Maybe just asking to cum will be the extent of it, but who knows. She says she still wants to be what I need, but I'm not going to push it. If she offers something we'll try it, but I'm not going to push like before.
Hopefully this is a new beginning that will lead us to common, kinky ground.
William
The crazy thing that I don't quite understand is, she wants me to still write her stories. Even when she doesn't want to try the things in there, she still likes reading them. You women are a confusing lot...But I still love you!
We did have some very hot, yet mostly vanilla sex today. She gave me a good blowjob, until we were interupted by our son needing help with something. So I had to put on my robe and go help him. When I got back, she asked if she did a good job, and I told her I was about to stop her anyway because I was getting close to cumming. She asked if I wanted to use the flogger and cane, but I thought maybe we would take a break from that this time. She asked for the vibe and I told her it really annoys me that she always asks for it right away. It makes me feel like it's turning her on and not me. I told her if she is just patient, I will give it to her. I started rubbing her pussy, feeling her growing wetter. I told her I love to feel her wet cunt, to feel her clit stiffening under my fingers. I stroked her hard little button and slid my fingers up and down her slippery sex. She wanted to know if she still had to ask to cum, and I told her not this time. That is something else that will have to be discussed later.
She asked me to rub her clit faster and I did. Her back beginning to arch up as her orgasm approached. She came with great force and she was soaking wet. After she came multiple times she said she wanted me to fuck her really bad. I told her no, I wanted her to fuck me. She thought for a second then said OK. I told her to get her wet cunt over here and ride me. She laughed and did so.
She climbed on top and slowly slide down my hard cock. I slid in quite easily due her extreme wetness. She started to really grind her cunt down on me, and I could tell by the look on her face that she was having those little tremors of orgasm she has when she is really turned on and riding me.
As she fucked me, her cunt was making squelching noises from her being so wet. That is not a common occurance since she is usually in too big of a hurry to really get that wet. She was giggling in embarrasment at the sound, but I told her not to be. It felt great and I could feel her juices running down over my balls. It felt wonderful.
Her arms started getting tired after awhile, so she laid down on top of me as I fucked up into her. We kissed a lot. Very passionately. Not like she usually kisses me. She has a tendency to hold back with her kisses, but not today.
After awhile I asked her if she wanted me to get on top, and she said she wanted me to cum in her in that position. So she lifted herself up again, having rested her arms, and she ground her cunt onto my cock as I pushed up into her until I groaned and filled her with the biggest load I had in quite awhile. Taking longer always results in me shooting a larger load. When I first started cumming, she said "Oh my."...laughs!!! Once I was done cumming, she commented that it was one of the best fucks we'd ever had...grins!!!
After she climbed off of me to go clean up, I saw that she had soaked my cock and balls with her juices. Very sexy...
So she went and took a shower and I cleaned myself up and got dressed. I came into the living room and sat down to relax. After her shower she came out with a big smile on her face, gave me a kiss and a hug, and leaning in close to my ear, she asked me if she earned her slut name again. I told her yes, but she has to keep working to keep it. She kissed me and said OK.
So in all it was a great day. It looks like we will have a somewhat kinky relationship involving not much submission. Maybe just asking to cum will be the extent of it, but who knows. She says she still wants to be what I need, but I'm not going to push it. If she offers something we'll try it, but I'm not going to push like before.
Hopefully this is a new beginning that will lead us to common, kinky ground.
William
Friday, November 11, 2011
Our talk...
Well I told her today while I was home for lunch that BDSM will no longer be a component of our relationship. I told her that she tried for over a year to be what I wanted, but it just isn't who she is. I told her About some of you submissive ladies who have tried unsuccesfully to make their husbands into dominants, usually with little success. She was upset and said she feels like a failure and that she hates herself for not being able to give me what I want. I assured her I don't hate her and that I'm not going to leave her. She asked me if I was going to get it elsewhere. I asked her if she was going to give me permission to. She said no, and I told her that was her answer.
I said that she just isn't able to submit for whatever reasons she has. Her past, her upbringing, whatever the reason or reasons. I told her that if she has such an aversion to using the word "Sir", there is no way she will ever be able to submit to me in other ways. She said she feels bad that I won't be getting what I need, and that she wants so badly to give it to me.
I was feeling a bit down as you can imagine, and she noticed it. When she commented on it, I told her that I will have days where I will be down. I won't lie to her and hide it. She has her down days for various reasons and lets me know about it, so I see no reason to hide anything from her.
We will have some rough times I'm sure, but hopefully we can get through them.
She asked me if I was still going to call her My slut, and I told her I didn't know. She said she likes when I do. I don't know if I will. I don't know if I will be able to have it part way. The nerves are still too raw right now to be able to decide what I will be able to do.
She claims to like the flogger, but I don't know if I will continue with it. I won't initiate it, but if she asks I don't know if I will. Time will tell how this all develops. I will certainly keep everyone up to date on what we settle on.
I hope I won't lose any of me wonderful followers, but I will understand if some of you go elsewhere for real life adventures instead of just fantasies.
I hope everyone has a fun and kinky weekend.
William
P.S.
I also want to thank any veterans out there who may read my little blog. Thank you for your service.
I said that she just isn't able to submit for whatever reasons she has. Her past, her upbringing, whatever the reason or reasons. I told her that if she has such an aversion to using the word "Sir", there is no way she will ever be able to submit to me in other ways. She said she feels bad that I won't be getting what I need, and that she wants so badly to give it to me.
I was feeling a bit down as you can imagine, and she noticed it. When she commented on it, I told her that I will have days where I will be down. I won't lie to her and hide it. She has her down days for various reasons and lets me know about it, so I see no reason to hide anything from her.
We will have some rough times I'm sure, but hopefully we can get through them.
She asked me if I was still going to call her My slut, and I told her I didn't know. She said she likes when I do. I don't know if I will. I don't know if I will be able to have it part way. The nerves are still too raw right now to be able to decide what I will be able to do.
She claims to like the flogger, but I don't know if I will continue with it. I won't initiate it, but if she asks I don't know if I will. Time will tell how this all develops. I will certainly keep everyone up to date on what we settle on.
I hope I won't lose any of me wonderful followers, but I will understand if some of you go elsewhere for real life adventures instead of just fantasies.
I hope everyone has a fun and kinky weekend.
William
P.S.
I also want to thank any veterans out there who may read my little blog. Thank you for your service.
Thursday, November 10, 2011
LOL!!!
It's Love Our Lurkers day. The first I have participated in. I want to thank everyone who reads my blog. Feel free to leave comments even anonymously. I love to hear from all of you. Without you, this blogging wouldn't be nearly as fun or cathartic to me. I even learn things from some of the comments I get. I am afterall still learning my craft. Even if I will no longer be able to ply it. I still want to learn more.
Once again, I want to thank everyone of you that reads my brain droppings here.
William
Once again, I want to thank everyone of you that reads my brain droppings here.
William
Answering a few questions, and an end of sorts...
I wanted to respond to some comments to my last post.
Miss Delectable, I don't talk about her wants in my blog because she quite literally gets exactly what she wants every time we have sex. She only wants the vibe to have as many orgasms as she wants, than she wants me to fuck her until I cum. That's it, that's all she wants. I have asked her many times if there is anything else she wants to try, or any fantasies she has. She claims to have none. I've even suggested things, all vanilla by the way, but she says she just wants the vibe.
As far as just trying to be vanilla for awhile, we did that for the first ten years of our marriage and we nearly ended in divorce. The only thing that convinced me to give her another chance was that she said she wanted to try things my way. Before you think that we almost split because she wouldn't give me kinky sex, we almost split because she basically treated me like I was her ex who abused her, and took out all her disdain for him on me.
Yes this blog is mostly about what I want because the first ten years were all about her. I was practically ignored.
Having said all that, I am at the end of my rope where it comes to trying to have a kinky relationship with her. No she isn't naturally submissive, shown by the issue she has with just the word Sir. She claims to want to be what I need, but in all honesty, she won't ever get there. Am I going anywhere, no. What am I going to do? I haven't a clue, yet. This blog may become just a place to write my bondage erotica. At least here I get comments and even some praise. Who doesn't enjoy and need that occasionally.
I appreciate all the comments I have been getting lately, even the critical ones. It may seem that I'm just trying to force my needs on her, but I'm just trying to get what I need after not getting it for over a decade. She keeps claiming to want to do it for me, and that's why I keep trying to find ways to help her learn. After yesterday's conversation it is finally sinking in that she just can't get there no matter how much she claims to want to.
I want to make it easy on her to experiment, but even the easiest options I give her are too tough, so I've pretty much given up. I will tell her tonight that this will no longer be a part of our relationship. I'm sure she will argue, but that's OK.
We did have a quickie during lunch today to make up for last nights debacle. It was completely vanilla, but nice.
Hopefully my stories will keep all of my readers entertained. I will do my best to do so.
Thanks again to everyone who offered encouragement and constructive criticism.
William
Miss Delectable, I don't talk about her wants in my blog because she quite literally gets exactly what she wants every time we have sex. She only wants the vibe to have as many orgasms as she wants, than she wants me to fuck her until I cum. That's it, that's all she wants. I have asked her many times if there is anything else she wants to try, or any fantasies she has. She claims to have none. I've even suggested things, all vanilla by the way, but she says she just wants the vibe.
As far as just trying to be vanilla for awhile, we did that for the first ten years of our marriage and we nearly ended in divorce. The only thing that convinced me to give her another chance was that she said she wanted to try things my way. Before you think that we almost split because she wouldn't give me kinky sex, we almost split because she basically treated me like I was her ex who abused her, and took out all her disdain for him on me.
Yes this blog is mostly about what I want because the first ten years were all about her. I was practically ignored.
Having said all that, I am at the end of my rope where it comes to trying to have a kinky relationship with her. No she isn't naturally submissive, shown by the issue she has with just the word Sir. She claims to want to be what I need, but in all honesty, she won't ever get there. Am I going anywhere, no. What am I going to do? I haven't a clue, yet. This blog may become just a place to write my bondage erotica. At least here I get comments and even some praise. Who doesn't enjoy and need that occasionally.
I appreciate all the comments I have been getting lately, even the critical ones. It may seem that I'm just trying to force my needs on her, but I'm just trying to get what I need after not getting it for over a decade. She keeps claiming to want to do it for me, and that's why I keep trying to find ways to help her learn. After yesterday's conversation it is finally sinking in that she just can't get there no matter how much she claims to want to.
I want to make it easy on her to experiment, but even the easiest options I give her are too tough, so I've pretty much given up. I will tell her tonight that this will no longer be a part of our relationship. I'm sure she will argue, but that's OK.
We did have a quickie during lunch today to make up for last nights debacle. It was completely vanilla, but nice.
Hopefully my stories will keep all of my readers entertained. I will do my best to do so.
Thanks again to everyone who offered encouragement and constructive criticism.
William
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
Some progress...
We played tonight. I started with the cane and flogger. She wasn't able to take much because her period is near. So we moved on to her vibe until she came a few times. Then we started talking about how I wanted to finish. I didn't want to just fuck because due to the fact that we hadn't done anything in almost two weeks, I knew I wouldn't last very long and that is always frustrating to me.
I told her what I wanted to do, but she wasn't willing to do it, so we were negotiating a way to make me happy when our son started hollering about needing help on the computer. By the time I got that squared away it was getting late and dinner had to be made. To make a long story short, I didn't get to finish.
We did talk a lot about what I want compared to what she thinks she can do. There is still some distance between us, but we are getting closer to a hopeful compromise. She told me she knows I can't bury those feelings. She knows the times I have, have been a disaster for me mentally. She felt bad not being able to do the things I want, and she's afraid I'll leave. I assured her that no matter what I'm not going anywhere.
I told her I just want her to give me her best, which she hasn't yet. She has to get past her fear of stepping out of her comfort zone. If she tries something and hates it, as long as she gives it an honest effort I will be satisfied.
I'm going to keep the dialog going, letting her know what my needs are and try to find a common ground between us.
William
I told her what I wanted to do, but she wasn't willing to do it, so we were negotiating a way to make me happy when our son started hollering about needing help on the computer. By the time I got that squared away it was getting late and dinner had to be made. To make a long story short, I didn't get to finish.
We did talk a lot about what I want compared to what she thinks she can do. There is still some distance between us, but we are getting closer to a hopeful compromise. She told me she knows I can't bury those feelings. She knows the times I have, have been a disaster for me mentally. She felt bad not being able to do the things I want, and she's afraid I'll leave. I assured her that no matter what I'm not going anywhere.
I told her I just want her to give me her best, which she hasn't yet. She has to get past her fear of stepping out of her comfort zone. If she tries something and hates it, as long as she gives it an honest effort I will be satisfied.
I'm going to keep the dialog going, letting her know what my needs are and try to find a common ground between us.
William
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
Some reconnection...
We have been pretty far apart the last week or so, but this morning we spoke about it. She asked if I have been avoiding her, and I told her no more than she has been avoiding me. I told her I was tired of her ignoring me and she apologized and promised to make it better.
She still hasn't read my last story and said she doesn't know when she will. That annoyed me all over again. It's not a novel. It won't take that long to read.
I asked her if she needed her ass flogged and her cunt fucked, and she said she did. These mixed signals are driving me nuts. I guess I am just destined to keep struggling along trying to make things work and get what I need. Wish me luck.
William
She still hasn't read my last story and said she doesn't know when she will. That annoyed me all over again. It's not a novel. It won't take that long to read.
I asked her if she needed her ass flogged and her cunt fucked, and she said she did. These mixed signals are driving me nuts. I guess I am just destined to keep struggling along trying to make things work and get what I need. Wish me luck.
William
Monday, November 7, 2011
A short story...
I wrote a short story on my other blog. I hope you enjoy.
http://thedarknessinwilliamsmind.blogspot.com/2011/11/baptised.html
William
http://thedarknessinwilliamsmind.blogspot.com/2011/11/baptised.html
William
Saturday, November 5, 2011
Her reaction so far...
She told me she started to read my story, but when she got to the "Sir" part she had to stop reading. It bothered her. She said it made her sound like a slave. I told her no, it is an honorific, a term of respect that I use at work all the time with customers. She said that I told her I want her to be my slave. She obviously doesn't really listen to me. I have never said that. I want a submissive, not a slave. I don't want to have to micro-manage everything she does.
Regardless, if she didn't like the beginning, I'm sure she'll hate the rest. The thing is, I don't really care at this point. I guess I will just watch my bondage porn, write my stories for all of you, and make the best of it. Any one looking for an online Dom?
Just kidding... kind of...
I hope you are all having a great weekend.
William
Regardless, if she didn't like the beginning, I'm sure she'll hate the rest. The thing is, I don't really care at this point. I guess I will just watch my bondage porn, write my stories for all of you, and make the best of it. Any one looking for an online Dom?
Just kidding... kind of...
I hope you are all having a great weekend.
William
Of service...
This is just a work of fiction. I will send it to my wife too, but it won't get me anywhere. It is as likely to happen as the other stories I have written her. Which means it won't happen. I hope at least all of you enjoy it. I know I will enjoy writing it.
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I walk in the door, exhausted from a long week of work. You are waiting with a cold beer in your hand, dressed only in your underbust corset, collar and cuffs. You can see how worn out I am and smile as you hand me the beer and take my jacket to hang it in the closet. I take a long pull on the beer while you are putting it away.
"Bad day Sir?", you ask.
"Rough week.", I respond as I sit at my desk and begin to relax.
You kneel in front of me, smile and ask," Would it help if I sucked you off? Do you need your balls drained a little?"
"That would certainly be a good start.", I tell you as I stroke your hair and give you a tired grin. "If you do a good job, you can have dessert before dinner."
You reach up and undo my belt and open my jeans. My cock is already starting to stiffen at your attention and the thought of your hot, wet mouth wrapped around my throbbing member. You lower your head and slowly slip your wet lips over the head of my hard cock. You take me as deep as you can, then you hold me there and swirl your tongue around the pulsing head. You can feel my pulse in the throbbing of my cock.
This is just the appetizer, and I am hungry for dinner, so I soon grab your hair in my fists and start to move your head up and down on my cock. fucking it with your mouth. You moan in pleasure knowing what is coming. I push your head down as far as it will go onto my cock as my cum erupts. I shoot a big, hot load into your throat as you moan. I can feel your throat working as you swallow my seed, not wanting to spill a drop.
Once I'm done cumming, I let you up so you can catch your breath. You lick your lips to make sure you didn't miss anything. I give you a kiss, tasting my essence on your lips and tongue.
"I'm ready for dinner now.", I tell you. You smile as I help you to your feet, and you walk off to put dinner on the table. I sit down with my beer as you place the food in front of me. It looks and smells delicious, and before I start eating, I hook your cuffs together so you have to eat carefully to not spill any food.
We have a wonderful meal, and you manage to not drop a crumb. You stand and clear the table, still cuffed. You put the plates in the sink and quickly wash them. Even cuffed you make quick work of the dishes. While you are finishing, I walk up behind you and reach around to grasp one of your breasts. Pinching a nipple hard beween my fingers. You moan in pleasure and pain. I reach down with my other hand to stroke your cunt and find it drooling your juices down the inside of your thighs.
"You liked sucking me off, didn't you slut?", I ask you while stroking your slippery pussy lips.
"Yes Sir. I love the feeling of your cock in my mouth. I love to taste you.", you say in a husky voice. Trying to keep an even tone as I manipulate your tender parts.
I stop my ministrations as you complete your chore. I grab the front ring of your collar and lead you to the bedroom, hands still cuffed. Once in the room I light candles and have you kneel in the middle of the floor. I put pillows down to cushion your knees because you will be there for a little while.
While the candles burn, I select and arrange my implements of pain and pleasure. The clamps and Wartenberg wheel. The dildo and vibrator. A couple ropes, the flogger, the crop and my cane. You watch as I arrange each item. I lay them out for you to see. I want you to think about what I will be doing to you with each item.
I begin by binding your breasts with the rope. I wrap then tight to make them stand out for me. I want them to be a good target for my attentions. I give each nipple a hard pinch making you gasp. Next I attach the tweezer style nipple clamps. Sliding the ring up until they are quite tight on the large nubs of erect flesh. You inhale a sharp breath as each one is placed, but I stroke the tight flesh of your tits to soothe you and distract you from the pain.
I pick up the crop and begin to lightly slap the underside of your straining tits, the skin taut from their bindings. I slap the tops of them too, before tapping on your clamped nipples. This elicits a moan of pleasure and pain from your lips. It hurts a bit, but the endorphins are beginning to rush through your body and you feel your cunt growing even wetter, pulsing with need.
I step beside you and bring the crop down on the tender globes of your ass. The slapping sound rings through the room. The sharp crack echos from the walls. I slap your ass harder and harder until the skin begins to glow a light pink. It's a good start, but this toy will never get the proper color.
I retrieve the flogger, ready to really begin working you over. I land the first lash across your ass. It is a heavy, thudding lash that makes you jump a bit, but you stay in your place like a good slut. After a few lashes, I begin to whip up and down your back as well as your ass. I give your back and ass a nice red glow. Your skin has a few faint stripes from the falls of the flogger, but not the kind of stripes I want. I give your ass the last few hard strokes, putting all my strength into each one. Your ass shakes with the impact of the blows and you gasp with each one.
I remove the nipple clamps quickly, and as the blood rushes back into the tortured flesh, I suck one nipple while pinching the other. Pleasure on one side, and pain on the other. Confusing your senses so you can't tell one from the other.
I grab the hair at the back of your head and pull you back so your tits are pointing upward, and land a few lashes of the flogger on your swollen tits. The nipples are very hard and distended and I aim for them with the whip. You yelp at each stroke before I finish and release your hair.
I lean you forward and placing another pillow on the floor, I rest your head and chest on the floor, your ass up in the air. A perfect target for my cane. Your tits ache from the tight rope and the clamps, and the cool floor feels good on the swollen flesh.
Before I start with the cane, I run my fingers up and down your open cunt. The flesh is wide open like the petals of a flower. Inviting attention from a hand or a hard cock. For now you just get the hand. Your juices are flowing down your thighs as I stroke and pinch the engorged folds of you pussy. I lightly rub your erect clit. It is hard and swollen in need. You push back towards me trying to increase the pressure of my fingers to get the orgasm you so desperately need.
"Not yet, My little slut. No cumming for you until I say so.", I tell you as you whimper when I remove my hand.
I stand up and bring my arm back. The first lash of the cane lands across both cheeks, a line of fire drawn across the flesh. I give you a few minutes to process the pain before landing the next blow. The next one is only on the right cheek. Once again I wait for you to let it sink in. Over and over again the cane bites into your flesh and I let the pain sink into you.
"I want you to cry for me slut. Let it go. Don't hold back. Give me what I need.", I whisper into your ear.
I land a few more hard lashes and I see tears begin to roll down your cheeks. No sobs, just these beautiful tears running from your bright eyes. I smile at you with such desire and lust before I put the cane down.
You look back at me as I pick up the dildo, but you look at me quizzically as I smear lube on it. You know your are plenty wet enough to not need it. I take the dildo and press it against your tight little ass. You shake your head no with apprehension.
"It is OK slut. I won't hurt you. You are relaxed and turned on. I will go slow and if it gets to be too much, I will stop.", I assure you.
You think about it a long time, all the while I am lightly stroking your slippery pussy lips, until you look at me and just barely nod your head. I begin to slowly and gently press against your sphincter. The dildo is much smaller than my cock, so you shouldn't have too much trouble taking it in. As the tight hole begins to relax, the tip begins to slide in. I go in a little, then back out. In a little more, then back out. Each time going in a little deeper until the head of the dildo pops past the ring of muscle, making you gasp in surprise. You didn't realize it was that far in, and you relax as I leave it there while you get used to it.
Soon I start to slowly push it further inside you. A little at a time. letting your body accept it until it is soon buried completely in your ass. You sigh and relax as you realize it is all the way in.
By now I am steel hard. Between giving you my pain, and seeing the dildo deep in your ass, I am hotter than I have been in a long time. I pull my cock from my jeans and in one smooth stroke, I bury myself in your hungry cunt. As I hit bottom, my abdomen hits the base of the dildo and psuhes it in just a bit. On each thrust of my cock into your tight pussy, I bump the little cock in your ass, giving you sensations in both holes. You are tight from being so stuffed. You have never felt so full.
I grab the vibe and reach under you and press it to your clit. You gasp and look back at me. Between the feeling of being completely filled and the vibrations on your clit, I know you won't last long.
"May I please cum sir?", you ask. Biting your lip in an effort to delay your orgasm.
"Not until you convince me you really need it.", I tell you, the whole time working the vibe on your hard little clit while slowly fucking your hungry cunt.
"Please Sir, I beg you. Please let me cum on your hard cock. Let me cum for you.", you plead.
I look at you as I continue to torture you with pleasure, watching you struggle to hold back your impending orgasm until I give you permission.
Finally, when I think you can no longer hold out, I say, "Cum for me slut. Cum all over my hard cock. I want to hear you."
With my words, the flood gates open and your let out a guttural groan as I feel your cunt grip my cock as the first spasm rips through your pussy. I can feel the muscles squeezing my cock as each wave rolls through you. I keep the vibe pressed hard to your clit, making you cum again and again. I stay still, my cock buried deep inside you as orgasm after orgasm is pulled from you. You tell me you've had enough, but I tell you no you haven't. I will tell you when you have cum enough for me. I keep the vibe pressed to your clit and reach down and move the dildo in and out of your ass a little to add to the sensations in your cunt.
You cum a few more times before I decide you've had enough and I begin to pound into your abused little pussy. I fuck you fast and hard, and soon I pump my hot load into your wet hole. You feel the heat of my cream splashing against the walls of your pussy and you sigh in contentment. I push into you in long deep thrusts until my orgasm subsides.
I stay there inside you until I feel myself beginning to soften. I then pull out and standing, I pull you once again to you knees and offer you my wet prick. You open your mouth and suck me in, tasting our mixed juices coating me. You suck the last remaining drops of cum from my cock and lick our juices from the shaft and balls. Bathing me with your tongue. Once you have cleaned me to my satisfaction, I lean down and kiss you deeply, enjoying our mixed essence on your tongue. I reach behind you and slowly remove the dildo from your tight ass. I toss it in the bathroom sink to be cleaned later.
I reach down and give your rock hard nipples ome last pinch as they stand out farther than I have ever seen them. Your breasts swollen and hard from the constriction of the ropes. I start untying them, allowing the blood to drain back into your body and they once again soften to the touch. There are lovely rope marks encircling them that I trace with my fingers, then my tongue. You moan with pleasure at the touch of my warm mouth.
Once the rope is removed, I un-cuff you and remove the cuffs and corset. I lead you into the bathroom and run a hot shower to soothe your sore body. I climb in with you and soap you down from head to toe. Gently washing your tits, stroking your tortured nipples. I reach down and wash your poor abused cunt, and then your ass. I clean you up really good. This is your reward for being such a good little slut, and giving me what I need.
William
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I walk in the door, exhausted from a long week of work. You are waiting with a cold beer in your hand, dressed only in your underbust corset, collar and cuffs. You can see how worn out I am and smile as you hand me the beer and take my jacket to hang it in the closet. I take a long pull on the beer while you are putting it away.
"Bad day Sir?", you ask.
"Rough week.", I respond as I sit at my desk and begin to relax.
You kneel in front of me, smile and ask," Would it help if I sucked you off? Do you need your balls drained a little?"
"That would certainly be a good start.", I tell you as I stroke your hair and give you a tired grin. "If you do a good job, you can have dessert before dinner."
You reach up and undo my belt and open my jeans. My cock is already starting to stiffen at your attention and the thought of your hot, wet mouth wrapped around my throbbing member. You lower your head and slowly slip your wet lips over the head of my hard cock. You take me as deep as you can, then you hold me there and swirl your tongue around the pulsing head. You can feel my pulse in the throbbing of my cock.
This is just the appetizer, and I am hungry for dinner, so I soon grab your hair in my fists and start to move your head up and down on my cock. fucking it with your mouth. You moan in pleasure knowing what is coming. I push your head down as far as it will go onto my cock as my cum erupts. I shoot a big, hot load into your throat as you moan. I can feel your throat working as you swallow my seed, not wanting to spill a drop.
Once I'm done cumming, I let you up so you can catch your breath. You lick your lips to make sure you didn't miss anything. I give you a kiss, tasting my essence on your lips and tongue.
"I'm ready for dinner now.", I tell you. You smile as I help you to your feet, and you walk off to put dinner on the table. I sit down with my beer as you place the food in front of me. It looks and smells delicious, and before I start eating, I hook your cuffs together so you have to eat carefully to not spill any food.
We have a wonderful meal, and you manage to not drop a crumb. You stand and clear the table, still cuffed. You put the plates in the sink and quickly wash them. Even cuffed you make quick work of the dishes. While you are finishing, I walk up behind you and reach around to grasp one of your breasts. Pinching a nipple hard beween my fingers. You moan in pleasure and pain. I reach down with my other hand to stroke your cunt and find it drooling your juices down the inside of your thighs.
"You liked sucking me off, didn't you slut?", I ask you while stroking your slippery pussy lips.
"Yes Sir. I love the feeling of your cock in my mouth. I love to taste you.", you say in a husky voice. Trying to keep an even tone as I manipulate your tender parts.
I stop my ministrations as you complete your chore. I grab the front ring of your collar and lead you to the bedroom, hands still cuffed. Once in the room I light candles and have you kneel in the middle of the floor. I put pillows down to cushion your knees because you will be there for a little while.
While the candles burn, I select and arrange my implements of pain and pleasure. The clamps and Wartenberg wheel. The dildo and vibrator. A couple ropes, the flogger, the crop and my cane. You watch as I arrange each item. I lay them out for you to see. I want you to think about what I will be doing to you with each item.
I begin by binding your breasts with the rope. I wrap then tight to make them stand out for me. I want them to be a good target for my attentions. I give each nipple a hard pinch making you gasp. Next I attach the tweezer style nipple clamps. Sliding the ring up until they are quite tight on the large nubs of erect flesh. You inhale a sharp breath as each one is placed, but I stroke the tight flesh of your tits to soothe you and distract you from the pain.
I pick up the crop and begin to lightly slap the underside of your straining tits, the skin taut from their bindings. I slap the tops of them too, before tapping on your clamped nipples. This elicits a moan of pleasure and pain from your lips. It hurts a bit, but the endorphins are beginning to rush through your body and you feel your cunt growing even wetter, pulsing with need.
I step beside you and bring the crop down on the tender globes of your ass. The slapping sound rings through the room. The sharp crack echos from the walls. I slap your ass harder and harder until the skin begins to glow a light pink. It's a good start, but this toy will never get the proper color.
I retrieve the flogger, ready to really begin working you over. I land the first lash across your ass. It is a heavy, thudding lash that makes you jump a bit, but you stay in your place like a good slut. After a few lashes, I begin to whip up and down your back as well as your ass. I give your back and ass a nice red glow. Your skin has a few faint stripes from the falls of the flogger, but not the kind of stripes I want. I give your ass the last few hard strokes, putting all my strength into each one. Your ass shakes with the impact of the blows and you gasp with each one.
I remove the nipple clamps quickly, and as the blood rushes back into the tortured flesh, I suck one nipple while pinching the other. Pleasure on one side, and pain on the other. Confusing your senses so you can't tell one from the other.
I grab the hair at the back of your head and pull you back so your tits are pointing upward, and land a few lashes of the flogger on your swollen tits. The nipples are very hard and distended and I aim for them with the whip. You yelp at each stroke before I finish and release your hair.
I lean you forward and placing another pillow on the floor, I rest your head and chest on the floor, your ass up in the air. A perfect target for my cane. Your tits ache from the tight rope and the clamps, and the cool floor feels good on the swollen flesh.
Before I start with the cane, I run my fingers up and down your open cunt. The flesh is wide open like the petals of a flower. Inviting attention from a hand or a hard cock. For now you just get the hand. Your juices are flowing down your thighs as I stroke and pinch the engorged folds of you pussy. I lightly rub your erect clit. It is hard and swollen in need. You push back towards me trying to increase the pressure of my fingers to get the orgasm you so desperately need.
"Not yet, My little slut. No cumming for you until I say so.", I tell you as you whimper when I remove my hand.
I stand up and bring my arm back. The first lash of the cane lands across both cheeks, a line of fire drawn across the flesh. I give you a few minutes to process the pain before landing the next blow. The next one is only on the right cheek. Once again I wait for you to let it sink in. Over and over again the cane bites into your flesh and I let the pain sink into you.
"I want you to cry for me slut. Let it go. Don't hold back. Give me what I need.", I whisper into your ear.
I land a few more hard lashes and I see tears begin to roll down your cheeks. No sobs, just these beautiful tears running from your bright eyes. I smile at you with such desire and lust before I put the cane down.
You look back at me as I pick up the dildo, but you look at me quizzically as I smear lube on it. You know your are plenty wet enough to not need it. I take the dildo and press it against your tight little ass. You shake your head no with apprehension.
"It is OK slut. I won't hurt you. You are relaxed and turned on. I will go slow and if it gets to be too much, I will stop.", I assure you.
You think about it a long time, all the while I am lightly stroking your slippery pussy lips, until you look at me and just barely nod your head. I begin to slowly and gently press against your sphincter. The dildo is much smaller than my cock, so you shouldn't have too much trouble taking it in. As the tight hole begins to relax, the tip begins to slide in. I go in a little, then back out. In a little more, then back out. Each time going in a little deeper until the head of the dildo pops past the ring of muscle, making you gasp in surprise. You didn't realize it was that far in, and you relax as I leave it there while you get used to it.
Soon I start to slowly push it further inside you. A little at a time. letting your body accept it until it is soon buried completely in your ass. You sigh and relax as you realize it is all the way in.
By now I am steel hard. Between giving you my pain, and seeing the dildo deep in your ass, I am hotter than I have been in a long time. I pull my cock from my jeans and in one smooth stroke, I bury myself in your hungry cunt. As I hit bottom, my abdomen hits the base of the dildo and psuhes it in just a bit. On each thrust of my cock into your tight pussy, I bump the little cock in your ass, giving you sensations in both holes. You are tight from being so stuffed. You have never felt so full.
I grab the vibe and reach under you and press it to your clit. You gasp and look back at me. Between the feeling of being completely filled and the vibrations on your clit, I know you won't last long.
"May I please cum sir?", you ask. Biting your lip in an effort to delay your orgasm.
"Not until you convince me you really need it.", I tell you, the whole time working the vibe on your hard little clit while slowly fucking your hungry cunt.
"Please Sir, I beg you. Please let me cum on your hard cock. Let me cum for you.", you plead.
I look at you as I continue to torture you with pleasure, watching you struggle to hold back your impending orgasm until I give you permission.
Finally, when I think you can no longer hold out, I say, "Cum for me slut. Cum all over my hard cock. I want to hear you."
With my words, the flood gates open and your let out a guttural groan as I feel your cunt grip my cock as the first spasm rips through your pussy. I can feel the muscles squeezing my cock as each wave rolls through you. I keep the vibe pressed hard to your clit, making you cum again and again. I stay still, my cock buried deep inside you as orgasm after orgasm is pulled from you. You tell me you've had enough, but I tell you no you haven't. I will tell you when you have cum enough for me. I keep the vibe pressed to your clit and reach down and move the dildo in and out of your ass a little to add to the sensations in your cunt.
You cum a few more times before I decide you've had enough and I begin to pound into your abused little pussy. I fuck you fast and hard, and soon I pump my hot load into your wet hole. You feel the heat of my cream splashing against the walls of your pussy and you sigh in contentment. I push into you in long deep thrusts until my orgasm subsides.
I stay there inside you until I feel myself beginning to soften. I then pull out and standing, I pull you once again to you knees and offer you my wet prick. You open your mouth and suck me in, tasting our mixed juices coating me. You suck the last remaining drops of cum from my cock and lick our juices from the shaft and balls. Bathing me with your tongue. Once you have cleaned me to my satisfaction, I lean down and kiss you deeply, enjoying our mixed essence on your tongue. I reach behind you and slowly remove the dildo from your tight ass. I toss it in the bathroom sink to be cleaned later.
I reach down and give your rock hard nipples ome last pinch as they stand out farther than I have ever seen them. Your breasts swollen and hard from the constriction of the ropes. I start untying them, allowing the blood to drain back into your body and they once again soften to the touch. There are lovely rope marks encircling them that I trace with my fingers, then my tongue. You moan with pleasure at the touch of my warm mouth.
Once the rope is removed, I un-cuff you and remove the cuffs and corset. I lead you into the bathroom and run a hot shower to soothe your sore body. I climb in with you and soap you down from head to toe. Gently washing your tits, stroking your tortured nipples. I reach down and wash your poor abused cunt, and then your ass. I clean you up really good. This is your reward for being such a good little slut, and giving me what I need.
William
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
Sounds good to me...
You are all free to send me anything you want to share. Pics you like, stories, or anything else you think I might like.
William
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