What she needs...

As I wrote last night, we talked about her trepidation to completely let go and give herself to me without reservation. We were laying on the bed talking tonight and she asked me what I was thinking. I told her I was trying to figure out what she needed to finally let go. She admitted she hadn't really even thought about what could be stopping her. She just hadn't thought of it that way. I told her I wanted her to do that, since if there was really nothing stopping her, it was time to just trust me and let go. She agreed. She doesn't really think there is anything further she needs. She told me I have done and said everything right to set her at ease about her submission to me. I think we may be only days away from what I have been waiting years to hear from her. Her accepting me as her Dom and owner of her body. My heart pounds in anticipation...Ok, my cock throbs too!!!

Another step...

I spoke to My slut tonight about stepping over her bounds. She still isn't feeling well, and tonight she tried to control me by getting me to do something I wasn't ready to do, by saying she would just do it. It is something that she knows I always do, but I just wasn't ready at that particular moment to do it. I didn't say anything right then, I just did it and waited until I was no longer angry with her before I brought up what she had done, and that it is not acceptable for her to treat me that way. She agreed and apologized for her behavior. I accepted her apology of course.
I talked to her more about her body belonging to me to do as I wish, when I wish. I explained that even under those circumstances, I will still respect her hard limits. I told her I wanted to have a one week trial where she submits to me completely after she feels better. I told her that I want to show her the reality of what I'm talking about. Not the controlling that she imagines it to be. Her first husband was a controlling abuser. I explained that I won't be prescribing what she does every minute of the day, just suggesting the kind of clothes I want to see her in, without specifically choosing what she wears each day. I do want her to start dressing more sexy and get in better shape. She has already lost a pretty good amount of weight and feels better, but she still has a bit to lose. Her first husband caused a lot of damage to her self confidence, which caused her to over eat. We are now eating better and we are going to start exercising when she is well. I want her to wear more skirts and dresses. I also love the way she looks when she wears leggings. Now that she can wear jeans again she has been wearing them all the time. I like the way her ass and legs look much better in the leggings, so I want to see her in those more. I will only control things out of the bedroom that relate directly to our sexy life and the way she looks and feels about herself.
She said she is willing to give it a try.
I am one extremely thrilled Dom!

A nice afternoon...

I had a great afternoon on Friday. The night before I told my slut she was going to get a spanking when I came home for lunch. When I got home I stripped her as soon as I walked in the door. She tried sitting down in the rocking recliner, we call it the cock rocker. She loves to ride me while I sit in the chair, or like today, I fuck her as we rock in the chair. I can go really deep in her as we rock. Before she could sit down, I grabbed her arm and spun her around and started spanking her. I didn't get to do it for long since I was rushed, but I made her ass a nice pink shade before I pushed her down in the chair and started using her pocket rocket on her clit. She now has learned to let go and soon she was having one of her intense orgasms that make her cry as if she is in pain. I love when that happens. As I was pounding deep inside her, I told her that her body belonged to me, and me alone. She said yes, but it still makes her nervous to hear me say things like that. She still has that lingering fear. After we came together, very hard, we dressed as we talked. I asked her if she knew that her body belonged to me, and she agreed that her body is mine to use as I want. That was kind of a big step for her. She says she wants me like no one else she's ever known. She told me that she never imagined I could be so deep inside her. This rocker allows me to tilt her hips back farther and really push deep in her. As soon as I started fucking her, she started cumming immediately from the sensation.
I will continue to work on getting her to accept me as her Dom, as well as her husband. After ten years, I think I am finally starting to get the wife I always wanted. One who can take some pain, but more than that, accept me as her dominant. She does good as long as she's being stimulated while I'm doing it. She can actually take quite a bit while she is cumming, and since she can cum multiple times, it allows me to give her moderate pain for quite awhile. She loves having her large nipples pinched and bitten while she is having an orgasm.
Tonight as we drove, she was being sassy to me, and I told her she better stop or she would get another spanking. She said she doubted how she acted would affect whether she got spanked or not. I told her of course it did. If she was sassy, I would spank her longer and harder. Either way she seems to be getting used to the idea that she will be spanked on a regular basis. She knows it is just for my pleasure, and not because she did anything wrong.
I'm starting to see a real change in her thinking, and it excites me to see how far I can take her in her submission. I hope to write of many exciting adventures in the future, showing how far my sexy slut wife can go from where she started as a shy wall flower, who hated to even talk about sex. She now calls herself my slut and smiles about it. She says it makes her happy, and she doesn't believe it herself. If I had called her that 6 months ago, she would have been pissed and been angry at me for days. Now she knows I mean it as a great compliment. She isn't a slut, she is My slut...

It's been awhile...

I haven't made an entry in quite awhile. My slut and I are still getting over a chest cold on my part, and bronchitis on her part. We have spoken about submission and trust on many occasions. She is still nervous about giving herself to me completely. After having a controlling first husband, she is afraid of that happening again. She knows I am nothing like him, but deep fears are hard to get rid of.
When we are feeling better, I plan on asking for a weekend trial of complete submission to me. Let her see what I mean with an end in sight. I have told her I am backing off a bit on the pain and bondage for a bit. I'm thinking it might be scaring her a bit. She may be focusing on that too much. Thinking that is all I am looking for in her submission. To tie her up and give her erotic pain every day. I want to show her that I need her submission in other ways. Even when we are having pretty much "vanilla" sex. Hopefully we'll both be back to full strength soon. I'm always open to suggestions or comments.

Todays training session...

I never cease to be amazed at some of the things she can do. Today we had some privacy, so I was able to do some more training with My slut. The first thing I did was tie a chest harness on her to showcase those lovely tits of hers. She is still uncomfortable with the ropes, but she is getting better. After I tied her breasts up, I put her hands in the leather shackles I made. Nothing like a little restraint to set her mind in the right direction. I then got her pocket rocket out. Her favorite toy. It gives her very intense orgasms. The shocking thing today was that her first orgasm brought her to tears. It usually takes her a few to build up to the really intense one. It's been a few days since we had sex, as we've both been a little under the weather. After I gave her a few good orgasms, I broke out the candles that had been burning for quite awhile. I have the cheap religious ones that burn nice and cool. She can take the hot wax with barely a flinch. I love coating her lovely large tits in multiple colors of wax.
After coating them really good, I got her pocket rocket out again, and managed to make her cry again. That was a first. She had finally had enough, and I removed her shackles and she climbed on top on me and had a few more orgasms until I let loose myself. It was quite a fun and intense morning. I still owe her a spanking for making me wait all week to play. She knows it is coming, but not when...

Patience...

I'm learning that a Dom needs infinite patience. My slut, not being a natural sub, is challenging me with her reluctance. I know it is hard for her to let go of control, and at the same time, I am ready to go full speed down the road to our D/s relationship. She says she is sure that she wants to try to make this work, but yet I quite often have doubts. When I bring up taking things further, she balks. Questioning me in why I want control over everything. It is who I am, and she knows this, but she still is reluctant. Her old fears keep rearing it's ugly head. I must give her time to relax into her submission, but yet after waiting over a decade, my patience is wearing very thin. I plan to question her on her conviction and how sure she is that she is willing to continue on this path. If so, she needs to let go and let me lead her where I want to take us. I will take her to a place of great pleasure, as long as she trusts me to take her there. I offer great pleasure in exchange for her complete surrender. My concern is whether she has the courage to be taken there through a road of erotic pain. My pain will make her pleasure all the sweeter, but she must accept, or I will be unable to give it to her. What is the joy of giving pain to someone who despises it? If she doesn't consent to it, It is over. I'm a sadist, not an abuser. I hope she joins me, if not...

My slut...

She is a beautiful one. No youngster, but then neither am I. She has had a rough life. Many heartbreaks and losses. It closed her heart for many years. In fact in nearly cost us our marriage. Fortunately I took the chance of letting her go when she left me, and it was the impetus she needed to examine the life she had been living. She opened her eyes to what had been going on, and came to me for a last chance to fix what was broken. I nearly didn't give her that chance. I am forever grateful I did.
We are now on the road of discovery of my Dominance and her submission. I am impressed every day by the change in her. I think she will make a loving and giving sub once she lets go completely. It still scares the hell out of her to let go, but she is finally trusting me and it is only a matter of time until she lets go completely. The thought of which brings a smile to my face every time...