I had her do the survey for me again that I had her do last November. There were some very interesting things there.
On a scale of 1-5, she rated the cane a four and the flogger a five. She rated oral sex, giving and receiving a four, definitely a big change in the giving part. She did only rate tasting my cum a 2, but she rated tasting her own juices a 1. We discussed it, and I told her she needs to start taking little tastes here and there and she agreed in principle. We'll see if it happens though...
She rated using the dildo a three, which she refusesd to use for years, and nipple torture and bondage of her hands in front a four and three respectively.
She has really started to open herself to more things and submitting to my pleasure more. I feel like things are about to get really interesting.
William
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
Monday, August 8, 2011
100 Followers...
Quite a milestone for me. I never thought I would have so many people interested in hearing what I had to say. I'd like to thank everyone of you for following my thoughts here.
Things are up and down here. I re-sent her the questionnaire I sent her last November. She forgot to rate the items 1-5 like I wanted, but her answers were still revealing. She now says yes to using the dildo, being spanked with the riding crop, and trying mouth fucking. I have never fucked her mouth, but you can be sure that is on the agenda very soon. She also answered yes to nipple play/torture. One of my big favorites. She said she is willing to try bondage more now too, as well as trying to kneel in submission for me.
I can't wait to try a few of these new things she is showing interest in.
Thanks again to all my followers. I appreciate every one of you, and love to get comments from you.
Don't forget to check out my other blog too.
William
Things are up and down here. I re-sent her the questionnaire I sent her last November. She forgot to rate the items 1-5 like I wanted, but her answers were still revealing. She now says yes to using the dildo, being spanked with the riding crop, and trying mouth fucking. I have never fucked her mouth, but you can be sure that is on the agenda very soon. She also answered yes to nipple play/torture. One of my big favorites. She said she is willing to try bondage more now too, as well as trying to kneel in submission for me.
I can't wait to try a few of these new things she is showing interest in.
Thanks again to all my followers. I appreciate every one of you, and love to get comments from you.
Don't forget to check out my other blog too.
William
Sunday, August 7, 2011
A bit of a mis-step...
I made a small mis-step yesterday. I was wanting to find out if my wife would ever want to wear My collar, and instead of simply asking that, I asked her if she was interested in submitting to me...Ooops!!! Dumbass!
She looked at me and said that is what she thought she was doing, or at least trying to do....(tears now)
Well it took a lot of reassurance that yes she was doing very good at submitting to me a little at a time.
I later told her what I really wanted to know. She said she wasn't sure if she would be able to, but she wasn't totally against it like she was in he past.
I just wanted to show the wonderful sub women who read my blog here that yes, we Doms do step on our dicks once in awhile...Very rarely of course...grins!!!
I hope your weekend has been better than mine... :(
William
She looked at me and said that is what she thought she was doing, or at least trying to do....(tears now)
Well it took a lot of reassurance that yes she was doing very good at submitting to me a little at a time.
I later told her what I really wanted to know. She said she wasn't sure if she would be able to, but she wasn't totally against it like she was in he past.
I just wanted to show the wonderful sub women who read my blog here that yes, we Doms do step on our dicks once in awhile...Very rarely of course...grins!!!
I hope your weekend has been better than mine... :(
William
Thursday, August 4, 2011
Quite a breakthrough...
Tonight was quite a big step. We got to have a session for the first time in a long time. She knew that I wanted to give her some good pain from our previous converstaions.
We atarted as usual with me giving her a massage. Then it was time for the flogging. I asked her if she wanted the cane or the flogger first. She said she wanted the flogger. I said want or need. She said she really needed it. I told her I was going to whip her hard tonight. I would start easy, then go harder, and switch back and forth to let her be able to handle it.
I whipped her easy for about 20 lashes, then hard for 10. Easy again for 20, then hard for 10. Then I went to 10 easy and 20 hard. I did this a few times, checking in with her occasionally making sure she was doing good. She was fine.
I gave her 20 hard lashes then went easy. She asked me if I was done and I told her I was enjoying it too much. So she said she could take another round, and I once again did 10 easy followed by 20 hard. I told her what a good slut she was and that I was proud of my good girl. She said she could take another round then, and I repeated as before, easy then hard. Going a little harder each round than the previous one. This actually went on for three or four more rounds. This was the hardest session ever by far. By the time we finished her ass was wonderfully dark pink. I felt something wet on my leg, and looking down I saw that from being so turned on from hurting My slut, my cock was streaming pre-cum like a faucet. I was so hard from whipping her ass. The harder I whipped her, the harder and more turned on I was. Pre-cum was strung all of the place on my thighs and balls.
I told her repeatedly how proud I was of My slut, and how she had surprised me tonight by how much she took. I was giving her about 75% of my strength on the heaviest lashes. She told me she had surprised herself, and that she felt no anger or residual issues from it at all. She was willing and able to continue amping things up each session from here on.
After her flogging, I used her vibe on her. She didn't want me to check her wetness, but of course I had too and told her I was going to. She was very wet of course. I used the dildo on her a little, but since it had been awhile since we did anything, it was uncomfortable for her, so I didn't use it long.
She didn't want to ask to cum, but I told her that wasn't an option. If she wanted to cum, she would have to ask. She did after I made her wait a bit, and she came very hard, gasping and on the verge of tears.
I then moved between her legs to give her the fucking she needed. I kept telling her how turned on I was, and told her how my cock was running with juices from my excitement. She asked me why I hadn't vum yet then, and I told her because I was enjoying fucking her too much to want it to end.
When she started getting sore, she asked me to please cum on her. She asked me to shoot it on her belly, but I told her no, her tits would catch my load. She said that would work.
I placed my hand on her throat and began to give her long deep strokes, letting my orgasm build. She said after a bit that it was hard for her to let me hold her throat, but I just told her to relax and trust me, and she did. She laid there and took my cock like the good little slut she is until I pulled out, and as she grabbed her ample tits and pushed then together to give me a nice target, I shot my hot cum all over her nipples. It was so intense, I felt light headed.
Afer I cleaned us both up. I again told her how proud I was of My slut. THen I changed that to My pain slut. She smiled and said she wasn't sure if she was ready for that moniker, but that she is definitely beginning to enjoy the pain more. She was reluctant to admit it, but she did without really saying it out loud.
I am so proud of My (pain) slut tonight. I see things progressing fairly quickly for awhile, but we still have a lot to work on in the submitting area.
I'm going to talk to her about having a goal of her wearing My collar by Christmas time. I think it will happen, but we will see. I already see little signs of her submitting to me in other areas of our life. I don't think she is even aware of most of them, and I'm not going to mention it yet. I don't want to make her start thinking about it, and have her get scared about giving me control like that.
What a great night, and I hope you all had a great one too. Or at least a good one.
William
P.S.
Afterwards she asked me if we are getting away from a vanilla relationship now like I wanted, I told her we are now a "swirl".
She also said that me allowing her to let me know when she was ready for each round in her flogging made her feel like she had a little control, although she said she knew I was in control of the situation and how much she would get. More steps in the right direction.
We atarted as usual with me giving her a massage. Then it was time for the flogging. I asked her if she wanted the cane or the flogger first. She said she wanted the flogger. I said want or need. She said she really needed it. I told her I was going to whip her hard tonight. I would start easy, then go harder, and switch back and forth to let her be able to handle it.
I whipped her easy for about 20 lashes, then hard for 10. Easy again for 20, then hard for 10. Then I went to 10 easy and 20 hard. I did this a few times, checking in with her occasionally making sure she was doing good. She was fine.
I gave her 20 hard lashes then went easy. She asked me if I was done and I told her I was enjoying it too much. So she said she could take another round, and I once again did 10 easy followed by 20 hard. I told her what a good slut she was and that I was proud of my good girl. She said she could take another round then, and I repeated as before, easy then hard. Going a little harder each round than the previous one. This actually went on for three or four more rounds. This was the hardest session ever by far. By the time we finished her ass was wonderfully dark pink. I felt something wet on my leg, and looking down I saw that from being so turned on from hurting My slut, my cock was streaming pre-cum like a faucet. I was so hard from whipping her ass. The harder I whipped her, the harder and more turned on I was. Pre-cum was strung all of the place on my thighs and balls.
I told her repeatedly how proud I was of My slut, and how she had surprised me tonight by how much she took. I was giving her about 75% of my strength on the heaviest lashes. She told me she had surprised herself, and that she felt no anger or residual issues from it at all. She was willing and able to continue amping things up each session from here on.
After her flogging, I used her vibe on her. She didn't want me to check her wetness, but of course I had too and told her I was going to. She was very wet of course. I used the dildo on her a little, but since it had been awhile since we did anything, it was uncomfortable for her, so I didn't use it long.
She didn't want to ask to cum, but I told her that wasn't an option. If she wanted to cum, she would have to ask. She did after I made her wait a bit, and she came very hard, gasping and on the verge of tears.
I then moved between her legs to give her the fucking she needed. I kept telling her how turned on I was, and told her how my cock was running with juices from my excitement. She asked me why I hadn't vum yet then, and I told her because I was enjoying fucking her too much to want it to end.
When she started getting sore, she asked me to please cum on her. She asked me to shoot it on her belly, but I told her no, her tits would catch my load. She said that would work.
I placed my hand on her throat and began to give her long deep strokes, letting my orgasm build. She said after a bit that it was hard for her to let me hold her throat, but I just told her to relax and trust me, and she did. She laid there and took my cock like the good little slut she is until I pulled out, and as she grabbed her ample tits and pushed then together to give me a nice target, I shot my hot cum all over her nipples. It was so intense, I felt light headed.
Afer I cleaned us both up. I again told her how proud I was of My slut. THen I changed that to My pain slut. She smiled and said she wasn't sure if she was ready for that moniker, but that she is definitely beginning to enjoy the pain more. She was reluctant to admit it, but she did without really saying it out loud.
I am so proud of My (pain) slut tonight. I see things progressing fairly quickly for awhile, but we still have a lot to work on in the submitting area.
I'm going to talk to her about having a goal of her wearing My collar by Christmas time. I think it will happen, but we will see. I already see little signs of her submitting to me in other areas of our life. I don't think she is even aware of most of them, and I'm not going to mention it yet. I don't want to make her start thinking about it, and have her get scared about giving me control like that.
What a great night, and I hope you all had a great one too. Or at least a good one.
William
P.S.
Afterwards she asked me if we are getting away from a vanilla relationship now like I wanted, I told her we are now a "swirl".
She also said that me allowing her to let me know when she was ready for each round in her flogging made her feel like she had a little control, although she said she knew I was in control of the situation and how much she would get. More steps in the right direction.
More developments...
We were laying in bed talking last night, and I was asking her more about her letting me give her a hard flogging. She says that sometimes it makes her feel angry that I want to hurt her, but she logically knows that I mean her no harm. It's the old emotional baggage that makes her feel so. She is working on it all the time to let go of the old stuff, but as some of you know, it is an ongoing process.
While we were talking about me giving her pain, she said she still doesn't like the cane, but she loves the flogger. She then stopped, kind of smiled, and said,"I didn't mean to say that. I didn't want you to know it."
I smiled and asked her why she was still afraid to tell me what she enjoyed. She said it is just hard to admit to liking such things that "good girls" aren't supposed to like...laughs!!! She also admitted that reading my stories do make her wet sometimes...Yay!!!!
I will keep talking to her and trying to get her to open up more about her desires. Especially the dark ones she doesn't want to admit to.
William
P.S.
Don't forget to check out my other blog if you haven't already.
http://thedarknessinwilliamsmind.blogspot.com/
While we were talking about me giving her pain, she said she still doesn't like the cane, but she loves the flogger. She then stopped, kind of smiled, and said,"I didn't mean to say that. I didn't want you to know it."
I smiled and asked her why she was still afraid to tell me what she enjoyed. She said it is just hard to admit to liking such things that "good girls" aren't supposed to like...laughs!!! She also admitted that reading my stories do make her wet sometimes...Yay!!!!
I will keep talking to her and trying to get her to open up more about her desires. Especially the dark ones she doesn't want to admit to.
William
P.S.
Don't forget to check out my other blog if you haven't already.
http://thedarknessinwilliamsmind.blogspot.com/
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
Our anniversary, kind of...
One year ago today we sat down and talked about how we were going to proceed if our marriage was going to survive. She spent the weekend at her parents house mad at me for talking to my ex. Even though we were just friends. I let her stew and think about it. I told her I was done and she could stay gone. She finally woke up after she got over being mad and realized how much she was screwing up. She came home on the date and I told her how things were going to be if I was going to give her another chance.
A D/s relationship was going to be part of it, and her showing me proper respect was another big component. For the most part she has done well, but there are always things that need to be worked on. She still has a long way to go in submission. I am going to sit down with her tonight and talk about the things that she needs to really focus on from here on out.
It's been an interesting year that I never expected to happen. No where to go but up, right?
William
P.S.
An update. She told me she finally read my last story, and is torn between fear of letting me flog her as hard as I want, and just trusting me to do it without causing her harm. That's a good sign though. She says she isn't afraid of me, or of eventually letting it happen. Good news!!!
A D/s relationship was going to be part of it, and her showing me proper respect was another big component. For the most part she has done well, but there are always things that need to be worked on. She still has a long way to go in submission. I am going to sit down with her tonight and talk about the things that she needs to really focus on from here on out.
It's been an interesting year that I never expected to happen. No where to go but up, right?
William
P.S.
An update. She told me she finally read my last story, and is torn between fear of letting me flog her as hard as I want, and just trusting me to do it without causing her harm. That's a good sign though. She says she isn't afraid of me, or of eventually letting it happen. Good news!!!
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
I can't wait...
My slut is feeling a little better. I can't wait to whip her ass. A good flogging is way past due for both of us. I want to hurt her, in a good way if course. I'm not angry with her at all, I just want to leave her ass bright red and maybe make her cry if I'm lucky.
Tomorrow is a special anniversary, but I will wait until tomorrow to write about it. It was a life changing day for us, and I want to mark it suitably.
Until tomorrow my friends. I hope you all have a great evening of pain and submission.
William
Tomorrow is a special anniversary, but I will wait until tomorrow to write about it. It was a life changing day for us, and I want to mark it suitably.
Until tomorrow my friends. I hope you all have a great evening of pain and submission.
William
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