sweet kk asked if I had always known I was a sadist. Actually it is a pretty new realization. I've known I wanted to explore BDSM for about 12 years. Kind of late in life. A chance rental of a bondage video woke the desires in me. My wife refused to explore with me, even though she knew about it before we married. She just lightly dabbled with me before we got married, then once we were married, she completely shut me down. I begged for years to get her to try and only stayed for our son. Finally last August we had a complete blowup where she threatened to leave, and I told her go ahead, I'm done. That woke her up, and we started finally travelling down that road.
About a year or so ago, I really started to explore different aspects of BDSM and I found myself drawn more to the sadistic side the more I read. I began to check out BDSM porn on a couple of the Kink.com sites, and found I was extremely turned on by both the videos and stories. The thought of a woman taking a hard flogging and caning gets my heart pounding and my cock throbbing. Like I posted yesterday, the harder I flog My slut, the harder I get. I can't wait to use the cane and leave some welts on her ass. I'm really a very sweet guy, very gentle and caring, but I love causing hard, erotic pain. I want to make her cry, then give her loving care afterwards.
In response to Naida, She may start to enjoy it. She already loves to have her nipples pinched hard while she is cumming, and she also enjoys hot wax on her breasts and the wartenberg wheel on her tits and nipples as well.
I hope that answers your questions. Any more feel free to write me.